Sorry!!! I know it's been 2 months since I updated this blog!! To be honest, I completely forgot about it since I've been here! Until Megan mentioned I had one. And THEENNN I remembered! Hahah! Thank you Megan!
Alright, for those of you who were wondering about my life, I will fill you in on the most important things:
1) I am in Japan. I don't like it very much. For one thing, the other people (the other "foreign" students) SUCK. They're all socially awkward and geeky and talk about NOTHING ELSE but porn and anime. Seriously. I have only made about 2 good "friends," although we don't really hang out that much. I spend my weekends usually catching up on sleep and reading. So much "me" time!! Except when Greg comes to visit, which is about once a month. He helps keep me sane. I have had quite a few break-downs since being here.
2) Japanese college is EAAASSSYYY. Seriously. I have SO MUCH FREE TIME. The myth that Japanese college is easy is TRUE. My teachers are very lax and I haven't had many stress-out moments since being here. I never realized how tough/intense American college was til I came to Nanzan.
3) Due to not receiving any proper nutrition since being in Japan, my body has started suffering. The myth that the Japanese diet is healthy is very false. Japanese food has no. nutrition. at. all. I used to only take a one-a-day vitamin, but now I take a one-a-day vitamin, 2 calcium supplements, 9 fiber pills, and 1 iron pill. Every day. All because my gums have started receeding and bleeding. I think I might have gum disease. But I went to the japanese dentist who told me "you are fine. you're just 'stressed.'" STRESSED??????? I'm sorry sir, where did you get your dentistry degree? Online? That's what I thought. (Note: the Japanese medical system is not known to be wonderful. That was proven when I went to the doctor and the dentist over here). I'm still bitter about all of that. Also, my nails have become weak/brittle and my body refuses to properly digest things (which is why I started taking the fiber and iron pills). What the hell, Japan? Your food sucks.
4) My host family, you ask? Well, when they're not overly criticizing me for not properly doing things, they ignore me. Completely. Things used to be ok but they've become progessively worse these past couple weeks. I decided to move into a dorm next semester. The stress from living in this hell-hole is killing me. Although my heart goes out to you, Megan. I know your situations not too fantastic at the moment either. *hug*
5) Although a lot of stuff here isn't too great, I do have some good news. I have met one of the most amazing people on earth. Her name is Ryoko. We met on the train and became fast friends. She lived in america for 10 years so not only is her english flawless, she also knows how to make American friends. Since our meeting, we have become close friends. She has helped me so much with going to the doctor and the dentist, and her family took me out to dinner last night too. She is awesome and I hope to continue being friends with her even when I move away to live 30 miles away in the Nanzan dorm next semester.
Note: I commute to school every day. I live far away from school, too. About the same distance that columbus is from wittenberg. It takes me an hour and a half one-way. Everyday. I am about ready to pull my hair out. Not to mention that trains here are CROWDED. And everyone is catching swine flu like it's the latest dance craze.
6) I am coming home for winter break. Why? I need healthy food. I need my parents. I need my friends. I need to go to the dentist. I need to see Sammy. I need to be around english. I need to know that all of my efforts in poop-land (aka Japan) are not in vain. Maybe next semester will be better. Not only will I live right next to campus, I will also be in control of what I can eat. Which means no more white bread (which is all they have here. It's shit), no more white rice (calorically empty, nutritionless), I can finally drink milk which will help strengthen my teeth and gums, I can work out at school, and I can be with my friends as long as they want when they come to visit. I can finally be happy. Adjusting to Japanese life this semester has been tough. I miss America. But I am still thankful that god has blessed me with ryoko's friendship.
Alright, that is my weepy update for you. I don't like Japan very much (although I am kind of happy I am here. It's definately less stressful overall) and the food is delicious yet provides no nutritional value. I miss America. Can I come home now?
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Almost Time....
It's almost time to leave for Japan......HOLY POOP!!! All of my emotions have been up and down like a roller coaster. This must be what my fellow study abroad-ers are going through right now, too. SO CRAZZZYYYYY!!!
Anyway, in case you were wondering, my plane for the land of the rising sun takes off at 10:50 AM from O'Hare August 28th (15 days! Yikes!). Then I fly to Tokyo. When I land at around 1:00 PM, I have a 5 hour lay-over at the airport (poor Megan has to go through a 20-hour lay-over on her way to Russia). Then I board another plane to Centrair (central Japan international airport) and land at around 7:30 PM Japan-time. After that I am meeting someone from IES who will go "Hi hello" then *HOPEFULLY* direct me to the hotel where I am staying for the night. The next day I begin a 4-day pre-orientation where I will take a Japanese class and do touristy things with other confused and jet-lagged Americans. Yee-haw.
Am I excited? Yes. Am I terrified? HELL YES! I have been spending the last couple days doing some clothes-shopping (success!) and making lists for various things I will need. I have a new purse and a new tote which Greg's mom and sister bought me that I will bring with me and use as a backpack (so cute! It's fake burberry. MY FAVE!!). I bought a new wallet. 3 Pairs of shoes. An electronic Japanese dictionary for my DS which is pretty badass. My poor bank account!
The only thing that keeps breaking my heart right now is the struggle my friend Vanessa is going through. She and her boyfriend just broke up but she was so so so so in love with him. As a result, she is completely torn and feels so betrayed and let down. So I've been spending time with her almost everyday, trying to keep her spirits high and let her know I love her and she can get through this. I hate break-ups, whether they are happening to me or someone close to me. This break-up however has brought me and her really really close and, as strange as this may sound, I am kind of thankful. She has always been there for me, and I am trying my best to return to favor. I am always worried about her, though. :(
In other news, I was contacted by a man who works for Witteberg about a possible internship. He also asked me if I wanted to blog for Wittenberg while I was abroad. Should I blog, you think? I might need some advice about this one.
Alright, I am off to continue making my lists for Japan. OH WAIT! Speaking of Japan, I FOUND OUT MY HOST FAMILY INFO!!! I will be living with a mom, daughter (who is 21), grandfather, and grandmother in a city called Gifu. It is in central Japan. SO EXCITED!!! But I can't speak Japanese so this should be interesting.
Anyway, in case you were wondering, my plane for the land of the rising sun takes off at 10:50 AM from O'Hare August 28th (15 days! Yikes!). Then I fly to Tokyo. When I land at around 1:00 PM, I have a 5 hour lay-over at the airport (poor Megan has to go through a 20-hour lay-over on her way to Russia). Then I board another plane to Centrair (central Japan international airport) and land at around 7:30 PM Japan-time. After that I am meeting someone from IES who will go "Hi hello" then *HOPEFULLY* direct me to the hotel where I am staying for the night. The next day I begin a 4-day pre-orientation where I will take a Japanese class and do touristy things with other confused and jet-lagged Americans. Yee-haw.
Am I excited? Yes. Am I terrified? HELL YES! I have been spending the last couple days doing some clothes-shopping (success!) and making lists for various things I will need. I have a new purse and a new tote which Greg's mom and sister bought me that I will bring with me and use as a backpack (so cute! It's fake burberry. MY FAVE!!). I bought a new wallet. 3 Pairs of shoes. An electronic Japanese dictionary for my DS which is pretty badass. My poor bank account!
The only thing that keeps breaking my heart right now is the struggle my friend Vanessa is going through. She and her boyfriend just broke up but she was so so so so in love with him. As a result, she is completely torn and feels so betrayed and let down. So I've been spending time with her almost everyday, trying to keep her spirits high and let her know I love her and she can get through this. I hate break-ups, whether they are happening to me or someone close to me. This break-up however has brought me and her really really close and, as strange as this may sound, I am kind of thankful. She has always been there for me, and I am trying my best to return to favor. I am always worried about her, though. :(
In other news, I was contacted by a man who works for Witteberg about a possible internship. He also asked me if I wanted to blog for Wittenberg while I was abroad. Should I blog, you think? I might need some advice about this one.
Alright, I am off to continue making my lists for Japan. OH WAIT! Speaking of Japan, I FOUND OUT MY HOST FAMILY INFO!!! I will be living with a mom, daughter (who is 21), grandfather, and grandmother in a city called Gifu. It is in central Japan. SO EXCITED!!! But I can't speak Japanese so this should be interesting.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
I am sad.
I wish people cared more. Even if you showed me the smallest ounce of concern I would be happy. I feel like I am always listening to other people go on and on about what THEY have to say about their problems all the time, but no one seems to have any interest in what's bugging me. Everytime I try to talk to someone about something that's on my mind, I feel like the subject gets changed pretty quickly. That really hurts.
Sorry, I know that sounds incredibly uncalled for and very selfish. Actually that sounds very very selfish. Sorry sorry sorry. It's just how I feel right now. Maybe I'm just sad that Greg leaves for Japan in 2 days. But no one really seems to care about how I feel about that anyway. I feel like I'm being ripped apart.
I wish people cared more. Even if you showed me the smallest ounce of concern I would be happy. I feel like I am always listening to other people go on and on about what THEY have to say about their problems all the time, but no one seems to have any interest in what's bugging me. Everytime I try to talk to someone about something that's on my mind, I feel like the subject gets changed pretty quickly. That really hurts.
Sorry, I know that sounds incredibly uncalled for and very selfish. Actually that sounds very very selfish. Sorry sorry sorry. It's just how I feel right now. Maybe I'm just sad that Greg leaves for Japan in 2 days. But no one really seems to care about how I feel about that anyway. I feel like I'm being ripped apart.
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Alright. I am done being bitchy and angry. I apologize for the tone of that last post (angst!).
But I am still uncertain with the whole relationship issue. Distance does, in fact, affect relationships. It will certainly be a test! But love = love. And trust = love. And God = love. Therefore, Trust = God = Love. :-)
ANYWHO, I am feeling good! I have just e-mailed Imai-sensei the tutoring guide she asked me to write...um.......2...months...ago...*wah!* But whatever. At least I'm not sending it in August or September etc. when I won't even be in the country. That community service was definately a..............experience I will never forget.
Weight loss update! I almost started crying tears of joy yesterday. Ladies and gentlemen....I have discovered that I am now a size 8. SIZE 8!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have NEVER been a size 8 before!! Always 9/10/11 depending on the line of clothing. I still haven't weighed myself, though. Guh. Why am I afraid of a scale? I am proof that you CAN reach your weight loss goal, no matter how difficult you may think it is. I could write a self-help book, lol.
Macy's was having a sale yesterday (which is why I bought my size 8 jeans!!!!!! wahooo!!!!) on most everything in the store. Which means *drum roll* I bought SUITCASES!!!! Suitcases which normally run for $250 EACH, but since luggage was 60% off, I paid $250 for THREE ENTIRE SUITCASES!!!
In other news, I am still very excited for Pennsylvania. But I hate airplanes. But Greg is worth the fear!
But I am still uncertain with the whole relationship issue. Distance does, in fact, affect relationships. It will certainly be a test! But love = love. And trust = love. And God = love. Therefore, Trust = God = Love. :-)
ANYWHO, I am feeling good! I have just e-mailed Imai-sensei the tutoring guide she asked me to write...um.......2...months...ago...*wah!* But whatever. At least I'm not sending it in August or September etc. when I won't even be in the country. That community service was definately a..............experience I will never forget.
Weight loss update! I almost started crying tears of joy yesterday. Ladies and gentlemen....I have discovered that I am now a size 8. SIZE 8!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have NEVER been a size 8 before!! Always 9/10/11 depending on the line of clothing. I still haven't weighed myself, though. Guh. Why am I afraid of a scale? I am proof that you CAN reach your weight loss goal, no matter how difficult you may think it is. I could write a self-help book, lol.
Macy's was having a sale yesterday (which is why I bought my size 8 jeans!!!!!! wahooo!!!!) on most everything in the store. Which means *drum roll* I bought SUITCASES!!!! Suitcases which normally run for $250 EACH, but since luggage was 60% off, I paid $250 for THREE ENTIRE SUITCASES!!!
In other news, I am still very excited for Pennsylvania. But I hate airplanes. But Greg is worth the fear!
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Blech. I feel like poop. And I'm very angry.
Although the week that Greg visited was amazing, I feel kind of......sad. He told me while he was here that basically JET has placed him on a fucking island off the coast of Tokyo. With a population of like...10 people. Which means it won't be easy to go see him and for him to come see me. In my mind this equates to RELATIONSHIP FAIL. Communication shall become almost nonexistent because I'll be doing Nanzan stuff all day and he'll be teaching. On a fucking island. A million miles away from me. The only sensible way to get to this island (which is volcanically active, by the way...) is by boat or plane but 1) Both are expensive and I'm anticipating not having much money in Japan due to not having much money now and 2) It takes 6 hours for the boat to get there not to mention it ONLY departs from Tokyo and it takes a while to get from Nagoya to Tokyo (travel time: 8 hours? 10 hours?). Our relationship? Fucked. At least in my mind. Greg is optimistic (which is a surprise) but I'm only thinking about losing the one thing I care about most. Thanks Japan and JET. You've been a wonderful help.
Gripe number two. My fucking face looks like a battlefield. I've been breaking out uncontrollably since March so my dermatologist prescribed an antibiotic for my face. With piles and piles of other acne creams and medicines on top of that. I hate my face. It was perfectly clear for almost 2 years then it explodes on me. Which means *drum roll* I have a HELL of a lot of medication to take with me to Japan. Which will inevitably become a problem due to the fact that carrying a year's worth of medicine (which I will NEED because Japan will probably not have the medicine for me) is illegal. So my mom and I have to write an appeal to her insurance company basically begging them to let me take a year's worth of my acne medication over to Japan because I wasn't blessed with a fucking perfect complexion like everybody else I know. I'm not going through puberty anymore!! Wtf, face???
Good news: I have continued to lose weight. I am not sure how much (because like most women I am terrified to weigh myself) but I can feel my jeans feeling even looser than before. At least while my face is exploding my body's behaving.
I am also going to visit Greg in Pennsylvania from July 21 - 27! Which means I can see Reen and Joani! I am very very excited (just wish Megan was there, too). Greg and I have been talking about going to Philadelphia and maybe even DC for a day.
I am a emotional riddle at the moment. I can't be solved.
Although the week that Greg visited was amazing, I feel kind of......sad. He told me while he was here that basically JET has placed him on a fucking island off the coast of Tokyo. With a population of like...10 people. Which means it won't be easy to go see him and for him to come see me. In my mind this equates to RELATIONSHIP FAIL. Communication shall become almost nonexistent because I'll be doing Nanzan stuff all day and he'll be teaching. On a fucking island. A million miles away from me. The only sensible way to get to this island (which is volcanically active, by the way...) is by boat or plane but 1) Both are expensive and I'm anticipating not having much money in Japan due to not having much money now and 2) It takes 6 hours for the boat to get there not to mention it ONLY departs from Tokyo and it takes a while to get from Nagoya to Tokyo (travel time: 8 hours? 10 hours?). Our relationship? Fucked. At least in my mind. Greg is optimistic (which is a surprise) but I'm only thinking about losing the one thing I care about most. Thanks Japan and JET. You've been a wonderful help.
Gripe number two. My fucking face looks like a battlefield. I've been breaking out uncontrollably since March so my dermatologist prescribed an antibiotic for my face. With piles and piles of other acne creams and medicines on top of that. I hate my face. It was perfectly clear for almost 2 years then it explodes on me. Which means *drum roll* I have a HELL of a lot of medication to take with me to Japan. Which will inevitably become a problem due to the fact that carrying a year's worth of medicine (which I will NEED because Japan will probably not have the medicine for me) is illegal. So my mom and I have to write an appeal to her insurance company basically begging them to let me take a year's worth of my acne medication over to Japan because I wasn't blessed with a fucking perfect complexion like everybody else I know. I'm not going through puberty anymore!! Wtf, face???
Good news: I have continued to lose weight. I am not sure how much (because like most women I am terrified to weigh myself) but I can feel my jeans feeling even looser than before. At least while my face is exploding my body's behaving.
I am also going to visit Greg in Pennsylvania from July 21 - 27! Which means I can see Reen and Joani! I am very very excited (just wish Megan was there, too). Greg and I have been talking about going to Philadelphia and maybe even DC for a day.
I am a emotional riddle at the moment. I can't be solved.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
I got a job!!!!! FINALLY!!! I will now be selling purses at a small kiosk in Northbrook (about 20-25 mins north of me). I will now have enough money to not worry! Which is good because I've been doing a lot of that lately! So all is well again in the financial department (for now).
GOOD LUCK TO ALL OF MY FELLOW JOB HUNTERS!!! HOPE YOU FIND SOMETHING!!!
News! I bought my plane ticket to Japan. It's official! I shall be flying to tokyo from chicago on the 28th of august, transferring from tokyo to nagoya, then landing in nagoya on the 29th. I am terrified! Actually, the word "terrified" doesn't even do the emotion I am feeling justice. Oh well. This is what I wanted, right?
[Insert rant about how much I hate Japan here. Seriously. I am PISSED at Japan right now. Hopefully that will go away by August.]
Aside from the job hunting (which was successful), I have been spending my days working out and relaxing. Dee slept over a couple days ago which was seriously one of the best days/nights of my life, and it was much needed. Also, Greg is coming to visit for a week beginning the 21st (this Sunday). I am incredibly excited yet somehow nervous because this will be the first time we've seen each other in a month (not that we haven't talked). But it's a good kind of nervous! The kind of nervous you get when returning to a place you haven't been to in a long long time. Like that!
Alright, wish me luck on my first day of work! Hope everyone is enjoying their summer!!!
GOOD LUCK TO ALL OF MY FELLOW JOB HUNTERS!!! HOPE YOU FIND SOMETHING!!!
News! I bought my plane ticket to Japan. It's official! I shall be flying to tokyo from chicago on the 28th of august, transferring from tokyo to nagoya, then landing in nagoya on the 29th. I am terrified! Actually, the word "terrified" doesn't even do the emotion I am feeling justice. Oh well. This is what I wanted, right?
[Insert rant about how much I hate Japan here. Seriously. I am PISSED at Japan right now. Hopefully that will go away by August.]
Aside from the job hunting (which was successful), I have been spending my days working out and relaxing. Dee slept over a couple days ago which was seriously one of the best days/nights of my life, and it was much needed. Also, Greg is coming to visit for a week beginning the 21st (this Sunday). I am incredibly excited yet somehow nervous because this will be the first time we've seen each other in a month (not that we haven't talked). But it's a good kind of nervous! The kind of nervous you get when returning to a place you haven't been to in a long long time. Like that!
Alright, wish me luck on my first day of work! Hope everyone is enjoying their summer!!!
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Hey Hey Hey~~~~~~
I think it's time to give my adoring fans (*coughcoughnobody*) an update as to what's going on in the life of one Ms. Cecelia Lisinski.
For one thing, I have restarted my game of Sims 2. Meaning, of course, that I am happily married to Sean Bean. Woohoo! I also restarted Majora's Mask (again.....even though I beat it 2 weeks ago. Oh well. I love that game).
The days here are going by pretty slowly if I do say so myself. I got all of my stuff done for Nanzan (well....most of it). The only things I have left to do are get my student visa and make flight reservations. Speaking of Japan, however...
I GOT THE BRIDGING SCHOLARSHIP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This scholarship is one of the most competitive in the country and hundreds fight for it but I got it! And so did Joani!! !YAYAYAY! It's for $4000. Which means now I have $5000 in scholarship money for a program that costs upwards of $32000. Now I only have to pay $28000, which is about what my family had originally been paying for Witt. I managed to even out the price in the end. Plus we have loans. What sucks is that I don't get to keep my Wittenberg scholarship (which would DEFINATELY have helped if Wittenberg didn't have such a cheap outlook on life). Damn you Wittenberg! Oh well. 3 months from today I will be on the plane to Japan!!!! My life's dream is coming true!!
Greg is coming to visit June 21 - 29. I am so so so so so so excited!!! I miss him a lot. Being away from him has been very hard. Also, my parents are letting me go visit him in July. We were talking about how we could go to Philadelphia together or Washington DC. I think Philadelphia is more of a likely place to go, though. To go Washington DC again is just wishful thinking on my part. We'll see what happens. ALSO, we have been discussing going to Gettysburg which means I can see Joani one last time before we are shipped off to Japanland. And Reen too, hopefully! Megan needs to go to the east coast too so we can have a full-fledged reunion! That would be amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now for a diet update. Ladies and Gentlemen I am happy to annunce that I, CL, have lost 15 pounds since February 2009. I have lost a jeans size and my old clothes fit me pretty well again (except for the boob factor....some shirts are history cuz of my.....you know....). Anyway, with any luck I will reach my goal (losing 10 more pounds) by the end of the summer before leaving for Japan. I feel like my old self again. I think it has everything to do with that exercise class I took last semester. So, for everyone who feels like they can't do it, JUST TALK TO ME!! I can inspire you and talk you through the weight loss process. Remember, don't think of it like a diet (because diets never work), just think about it as adding exercise and better foods to your normal routine. Never restrict yourself! That just makes your body want more (and that's why diets fail).
As for a job.....HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Let's not talk about that.
Alright, I'm off to play MM. Hope you enjoyed reading this!
I think it's time to give my adoring fans (*coughcoughnobody*) an update as to what's going on in the life of one Ms. Cecelia Lisinski.
For one thing, I have restarted my game of Sims 2. Meaning, of course, that I am happily married to Sean Bean. Woohoo! I also restarted Majora's Mask (again.....even though I beat it 2 weeks ago. Oh well. I love that game).
The days here are going by pretty slowly if I do say so myself. I got all of my stuff done for Nanzan (well....most of it). The only things I have left to do are get my student visa and make flight reservations. Speaking of Japan, however...
I GOT THE BRIDGING SCHOLARSHIP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This scholarship is one of the most competitive in the country and hundreds fight for it but I got it! And so did Joani!! !YAYAYAY! It's for $4000. Which means now I have $5000 in scholarship money for a program that costs upwards of $32000. Now I only have to pay $28000, which is about what my family had originally been paying for Witt. I managed to even out the price in the end. Plus we have loans. What sucks is that I don't get to keep my Wittenberg scholarship (which would DEFINATELY have helped if Wittenberg didn't have such a cheap outlook on life). Damn you Wittenberg! Oh well. 3 months from today I will be on the plane to Japan!!!! My life's dream is coming true!!
Greg is coming to visit June 21 - 29. I am so so so so so so excited!!! I miss him a lot. Being away from him has been very hard. Also, my parents are letting me go visit him in July. We were talking about how we could go to Philadelphia together or Washington DC. I think Philadelphia is more of a likely place to go, though. To go Washington DC again is just wishful thinking on my part. We'll see what happens. ALSO, we have been discussing going to Gettysburg which means I can see Joani one last time before we are shipped off to Japanland. And Reen too, hopefully! Megan needs to go to the east coast too so we can have a full-fledged reunion! That would be amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now for a diet update. Ladies and Gentlemen I am happy to annunce that I, CL, have lost 15 pounds since February 2009. I have lost a jeans size and my old clothes fit me pretty well again (except for the boob factor....some shirts are history cuz of my.....you know....). Anyway, with any luck I will reach my goal (losing 10 more pounds) by the end of the summer before leaving for Japan. I feel like my old self again. I think it has everything to do with that exercise class I took last semester. So, for everyone who feels like they can't do it, JUST TALK TO ME!! I can inspire you and talk you through the weight loss process. Remember, don't think of it like a diet (because diets never work), just think about it as adding exercise and better foods to your normal routine. Never restrict yourself! That just makes your body want more (and that's why diets fail).
As for a job.....HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Let's not talk about that.
Alright, I'm off to play MM. Hope you enjoyed reading this!
Friday, May 22, 2009
Friday, May 15, 2009
Do Not Read This if you Can't Stand Whining
Emo post GO!!!
I have only a day and a half left with the man I love.
Every time I think about being away from him....even if it's more than a second....I just feel like bursting into tears. I love Greg so much. He has truly changed my perspective on a lot of things. He allowed me to trust men again. He gave me so much confidence over this past semester. He has turned me from a fairly bitter person into one who can love. He showed me that not all men are selfish assholes.
Maybe it's the way I feel when he wraps his arms around me and holds me. Maybe it's the way he kisses me. Maybe it's the way he reassures me that I can do or be anything. I can't see myself being without any of these things. I think this is someone I can see myself being with for a very very long time.
Anyway anyway anyway. Let's stop being emotional shall we? I am meeting his parents sometime later today. He already met my dad (and survived!!!). Now I sit here contemplating life and wishing Sunday won't come.
Can't time just stop?
I have only a day and a half left with the man I love.
Every time I think about being away from him....even if it's more than a second....I just feel like bursting into tears. I love Greg so much. He has truly changed my perspective on a lot of things. He allowed me to trust men again. He gave me so much confidence over this past semester. He has turned me from a fairly bitter person into one who can love. He showed me that not all men are selfish assholes.
Maybe it's the way I feel when he wraps his arms around me and holds me. Maybe it's the way he kisses me. Maybe it's the way he reassures me that I can do or be anything. I can't see myself being without any of these things. I think this is someone I can see myself being with for a very very long time.
Anyway anyway anyway. Let's stop being emotional shall we? I am meeting his parents sometime later today. He already met my dad (and survived!!!). Now I sit here contemplating life and wishing Sunday won't come.
Can't time just stop?
Friday, May 8, 2009
It's so close.......I can taste freedom!!!
Today I have my linguistics exam. Tomorrrow Japanese. Then it's PARTY WEEK! Well....sort of.
Yesterday the gals and I went to Columbus for some shopping. I LOVE COLUMBUS!!!! The mall we went to had a couple stores that I bought some pretty nice shirts from (not too much color though -- it's in preperation for Japan and their colorless fashion, lol). I also bought flats from payless. SCORE!
I am currently getting over the most random cold ever. It's really only a half-assed one. I didn't think it was possible, but it really doesn't have the same potential as a real cold. I think that's the benefit of taking a vitamin every day. I think compared to 2-3 years ago, I am catching a significantly less amount of colds. And when I do catch them they only last for a day or 2. SO TAKE YOUR VITAMINS! Jk - I'm sure it's different for everyone.
All I can say? My creative writing class = terrible. I wish I had never taken it. Gah. Ask me if you want to hear horror stories.
Today I have my linguistics exam. Tomorrrow Japanese. Then it's PARTY WEEK! Well....sort of.
Yesterday the gals and I went to Columbus for some shopping. I LOVE COLUMBUS!!!! The mall we went to had a couple stores that I bought some pretty nice shirts from (not too much color though -- it's in preperation for Japan and their colorless fashion, lol). I also bought flats from payless. SCORE!
I am currently getting over the most random cold ever. It's really only a half-assed one. I didn't think it was possible, but it really doesn't have the same potential as a real cold. I think that's the benefit of taking a vitamin every day. I think compared to 2-3 years ago, I am catching a significantly less amount of colds. And when I do catch them they only last for a day or 2. SO TAKE YOUR VITAMINS! Jk - I'm sure it's different for everyone.
All I can say? My creative writing class = terrible. I wish I had never taken it. Gah. Ask me if you want to hear horror stories.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
DEE DEE DEE DEE!!! I'M SORRY!!! I KNOW YOU TEXTED ME YESTERDAY!!!! I'M SORRY I DIDN'T REPLY!!!!! I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I'M SORRY!!! I am glad you wore our necklace!!! I think we should get one more pair before I fly off to Japan! I LOVE YOU SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO MUCH!!!! If you're not busy tomorrow (Monday, 04/28) I will call you. I want to hear about your weekend please!!!!!!!
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Today Greg and I took a walk trough the Ferncliff graveyard. I got a weird sunburn because I was wearing my sundress and forgot to put sunblock on my shoulders (I'm innocent! I swear! I didn't know the sun in flippin APRIL would burn me). Today was an absolutely gorgeous day and I took advantage of it!!
A weird thing that happened earlier today was I was overcome with an overwhelming sense of nostalgia. I felt a deep longing for my parents and my best friend, for back in the day when I still lived at home and I could see them every day. But when I looked in Greg's eyes I realized that everything I really ever longed for was right in front of me. I still feel nostalgic, but I feel more optimistic about the future for some reason. Nostalgia keeps catching up to me at random times these days. I think I have finally hit the point in life in which I realize I am truly independant. Every adult hits it I hear. I think now is the time. But I feel confident about the future.
One last note: Greg bought me a bear!!!! I named it Algodon Pittsbeargh Lisinski-Walter.
END BOYFRIEND RANT!
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Yesterday we rented a hotel room for Joani for her 21st birthday. We had a BLAST!!!! There was vodka. Mike's hard lemonade. Diet Coke. Kingdom Hearts. Peter Pan. Best damn hotel party ever.
I have a weird fear of airplanes so I dreamt (as I dream almost every night) about a really horrible plane crash. Apparantly in the middle of the night I let out a weird moan or something. I woke up crying. Kit Kat was like "OMG CECE ARE YOU OK?!" God. I hate airplanes. I hate these stupid dreams. YOU ARE NOT AFRAID OF AIRPLANES, CECELIA. STOP THINKING YOU ARE! (Ahh!!!)
I have only a week and half left of classes. I don't really know how to feel about this. This year went by SO FAST! Where did my sophmore year go??
Alright, it's time for this lazy gal to go to bed finally. Since I am tired this post may have seemed very random. Hope you liked reading it!
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Today Greg and I took a walk trough the Ferncliff graveyard. I got a weird sunburn because I was wearing my sundress and forgot to put sunblock on my shoulders (I'm innocent! I swear! I didn't know the sun in flippin APRIL would burn me). Today was an absolutely gorgeous day and I took advantage of it!!
A weird thing that happened earlier today was I was overcome with an overwhelming sense of nostalgia. I felt a deep longing for my parents and my best friend, for back in the day when I still lived at home and I could see them every day. But when I looked in Greg's eyes I realized that everything I really ever longed for was right in front of me. I still feel nostalgic, but I feel more optimistic about the future for some reason. Nostalgia keeps catching up to me at random times these days. I think I have finally hit the point in life in which I realize I am truly independant. Every adult hits it I hear. I think now is the time. But I feel confident about the future.
One last note: Greg bought me a bear!!!! I named it Algodon Pittsbeargh Lisinski-Walter.
END BOYFRIEND RANT!
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Yesterday we rented a hotel room for Joani for her 21st birthday. We had a BLAST!!!! There was vodka. Mike's hard lemonade. Diet Coke. Kingdom Hearts. Peter Pan. Best damn hotel party ever.
I have a weird fear of airplanes so I dreamt (as I dream almost every night) about a really horrible plane crash. Apparantly in the middle of the night I let out a weird moan or something. I woke up crying. Kit Kat was like "OMG CECE ARE YOU OK?!" God. I hate airplanes. I hate these stupid dreams. YOU ARE NOT AFRAID OF AIRPLANES, CECELIA. STOP THINKING YOU ARE! (Ahh!!!)
I have only a week and half left of classes. I don't really know how to feel about this. This year went by SO FAST! Where did my sophmore year go??
Alright, it's time for this lazy gal to go to bed finally. Since I am tired this post may have seemed very random. Hope you liked reading it!
Monday, April 13, 2009
Decisions Decisions Decisions.
I want to sleep forever! Actually, I noticed something a tad strange. There are weird lines that are starting to form under my eyes. Does this mean I am A) getting older B) not sleeping enough or C) both? Personally I think C.
College is just overall bad for the body!
Summer! I will be returning Sunday May 17th!! Then somehow I have to find a job in this dying economy. THEN AFTER THAT...JAPAN!!!!!!
Anyway, Easter break was very very very low-key and relaxing. Thursday evening was spent with Greg. Hot Fuzz = ONE OF MY NEW FAVORITE MOVIES!!! Friday me and the gals had a sleepover in kit kat's room which was FANTASTIC!!!!! Watched Battle Royale and played Zelda (score!!). Saturday was spent doing practically nothing. I bought a new book which I am excited about. Sunday I went over to Greg's house to dye eggs with him, his roomates, and my fellow naughty ninensee's. I made a pokeball egg! It was sweet!! And Greg's roomate Dave's parents bought the guys a SHIT ton of candy. I have a theory that they will all have diabetes very very soon. Except Greg. He will have bad cholesterol. I'm changing his eating habits slowly.
I feel bad about not going to church on Easter. :-( I am looking forward to going back to my church over summer break. I miss it a lot!!!!
That's it! I'm off to bed!!
I want to sleep forever! Actually, I noticed something a tad strange. There are weird lines that are starting to form under my eyes. Does this mean I am A) getting older B) not sleeping enough or C) both? Personally I think C.
College is just overall bad for the body!
Summer! I will be returning Sunday May 17th!! Then somehow I have to find a job in this dying economy. THEN AFTER THAT...JAPAN!!!!!!
Anyway, Easter break was very very very low-key and relaxing. Thursday evening was spent with Greg. Hot Fuzz = ONE OF MY NEW FAVORITE MOVIES!!! Friday me and the gals had a sleepover in kit kat's room which was FANTASTIC!!!!! Watched Battle Royale and played Zelda (score!!). Saturday was spent doing practically nothing. I bought a new book which I am excited about. Sunday I went over to Greg's house to dye eggs with him, his roomates, and my fellow naughty ninensee's. I made a pokeball egg! It was sweet!! And Greg's roomate Dave's parents bought the guys a SHIT ton of candy. I have a theory that they will all have diabetes very very soon. Except Greg. He will have bad cholesterol. I'm changing his eating habits slowly.
I feel bad about not going to church on Easter. :-( I am looking forward to going back to my church over summer break. I miss it a lot!!!!
That's it! I'm off to bed!!
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Why do I get the feeling like my parents are disappointed in me?
I know that's something weird to ask and I know it's most definately not true, but that's how I've been feeling lately. For example, my mom called a couple days ago to work out some scholarship issues and whatnot, and she did NOT sound happy to talk to me. And then this morning I received a preachy e-mail from her about how she did not want me to stay with Greg and how she was sad I wasn't coming home for Easter and blah blah blah blah. *sigh*
Not to mention I've been feeling so guilty about EVERYTHING recently. I don't know what's going on. I feel like my friends are so disappointed in me. And I feel like I'm letting everyone down. And I feel like I'm being a clingy girlfiend. I feel like everyone is irritated with me, so I'm trying to just have Cece-time. So right now I sit here in my room and blog about my disgusted-with-myself-ness.
I need you to be here with me, best friend. I need someone to vent to and laugh with and celebrate life with. I don't seem to have anyone like that here.
I know that's something weird to ask and I know it's most definately not true, but that's how I've been feeling lately. For example, my mom called a couple days ago to work out some scholarship issues and whatnot, and she did NOT sound happy to talk to me. And then this morning I received a preachy e-mail from her about how she did not want me to stay with Greg and how she was sad I wasn't coming home for Easter and blah blah blah blah. *sigh*
Not to mention I've been feeling so guilty about EVERYTHING recently. I don't know what's going on. I feel like my friends are so disappointed in me. And I feel like I'm letting everyone down. And I feel like I'm being a clingy girlfiend. I feel like everyone is irritated with me, so I'm trying to just have Cece-time. So right now I sit here in my room and blog about my disgusted-with-myself-ness.
I need you to be here with me, best friend. I need someone to vent to and laugh with and celebrate life with. I don't seem to have anyone like that here.
Monday, March 30, 2009
I'm skipping JAP class at the moment. Damn Japs. I don't feel like putting in the effort today. Too lazy. Blah. I know people tell me I should practice by going to class and JAP tables, but, honestly, I don't give 2 shits about practicing. My opinion is that's why God invented manga (reading comprehension) and Utada (listening comprehension). Right?
JAPANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!
Sorry - got a little carried away there. I still can't believe it's happening (LOL! I originally wrote "japenning." I think that's appropriate). I AM GOING TO JAPAPAPAPAPAPANNNN!
I have 3 meetings today. The first was about Japan. I had it at 9 this morning (JAPAN! AHH!). Next, at 2, I have a meeting with my creative writing teacher to discuss my story. From the criticism she's given to other people, I am getting ready to be ripped apart. But I LIKE MY STORY, dammit! So I won't be offended. She's a nutbag anyway. And then at 3 I have a meeting with my linguistics professor to discuss my project. I can't wait til that spawn of satan is over.
I am in a great mood! Today is a beautiful day! :-)
ps - I'm not listening to fall out boy! I swear! Why would I do that??! God!
JAPANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!
Sorry - got a little carried away there. I still can't believe it's happening (LOL! I originally wrote "japenning." I think that's appropriate). I AM GOING TO JAPAPAPAPAPAPANNNN!
I have 3 meetings today. The first was about Japan. I had it at 9 this morning (JAPAN! AHH!). Next, at 2, I have a meeting with my creative writing teacher to discuss my story. From the criticism she's given to other people, I am getting ready to be ripped apart. But I LIKE MY STORY, dammit! So I won't be offended. She's a nutbag anyway. And then at 3 I have a meeting with my linguistics professor to discuss my project. I can't wait til that spawn of satan is over.
I am in a great mood! Today is a beautiful day! :-)
ps - I'm not listening to fall out boy! I swear! Why would I do that??! God!
Thursday, March 26, 2009
I GOT INTO NANZAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN!!!! *victory dance*
Oh shit. I am going to Japan. For a whole year. As in, I will be in a different culture entirely not my own. ASIANS! ahhh! OMG OMG OMG! I WILL BE IN JAPAN IN 5 MONTHS! HOLY MOLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The truth is, I am very much in love. Saying good-bye to him in May will be one of the hardest things I will ever do in my entire life. The good news: he is going to try to get a job in Japan if he ends up not getting JET because we are going to do our damned best to stay together. Despite the distance, I think I can still love him. Last night when I was on the phone with my mom, she reminded me that Greg and I only have about a month left together. Cue the sappy music and tears. Well, the tears were there, anyway.
On that note, I will be living with him and his roomates for a few days in May after the dorms close. I don't want to think about the future. I don't want May 16th to come. God, please let him get JET so we can be together in Japan.
End rant on love story.
Oh shit. I am going to Japan. For a whole year. As in, I will be in a different culture entirely not my own. ASIANS! ahhh! OMG OMG OMG! I WILL BE IN JAPAN IN 5 MONTHS! HOLY MOLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The truth is, I am very much in love. Saying good-bye to him in May will be one of the hardest things I will ever do in my entire life. The good news: he is going to try to get a job in Japan if he ends up not getting JET because we are going to do our damned best to stay together. Despite the distance, I think I can still love him. Last night when I was on the phone with my mom, she reminded me that Greg and I only have about a month left together. Cue the sappy music and tears. Well, the tears were there, anyway.
On that note, I will be living with him and his roomates for a few days in May after the dorms close. I don't want to think about the future. I don't want May 16th to come. God, please let him get JET so we can be together in Japan.
End rant on love story.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Random Rant
I am only going to write quickly on one thing I never really thought about before until now.
My brothers are assholes. My brother Pat uses my parents completely and lies to them. He has been verbally abusive to both me and my mother (mostly to me) and he almost ruined many occasions with his stupiditiy. He never tells ANYONE in my family he "loves them" or "appreciates them." He never shares anything about himself. He lacks the fundamental skills to have a completely compassionate relationship with someone.
Joel is distant. He did that on purpose a long time ago. He never attempted to make a relationship with ANYONE in my family ever. I would even call what we barely have a "relationship."
The reason I write about that is this. Greg's mom called him the other day while we were hanging out in my room. Holy Lord, that had to be the sweetest conversation I have ever heard in my entire life. He and his mom seemed to have a bond, which is something my parents never established with their sons. He never told his mom "fuck you" or anything (something that goes on a LOT in my family). I didn't even understand. I know this is strange, but the kindness he showed toward his mother practically moved me to tears. My brothers would NEVER show any kindness or respect or love to my mom, that is to say, if they ever even called each other in the first place. My brothers are assholes who set up a false impression of men for me. Greg proved me wrong, and I am so thankful.
Not only that, Greg told me about how he was protecting his sister from getting hit on at a bar. My brothers would never stick up for me in that type of situation. I have finally met someone that helped me change my opinion on the generalizations I make toward men.
My brothers are assholes. My brother Pat uses my parents completely and lies to them. He has been verbally abusive to both me and my mother (mostly to me) and he almost ruined many occasions with his stupiditiy. He never tells ANYONE in my family he "loves them" or "appreciates them." He never shares anything about himself. He lacks the fundamental skills to have a completely compassionate relationship with someone.
Joel is distant. He did that on purpose a long time ago. He never attempted to make a relationship with ANYONE in my family ever. I would even call what we barely have a "relationship."
The reason I write about that is this. Greg's mom called him the other day while we were hanging out in my room. Holy Lord, that had to be the sweetest conversation I have ever heard in my entire life. He and his mom seemed to have a bond, which is something my parents never established with their sons. He never told his mom "fuck you" or anything (something that goes on a LOT in my family). I didn't even understand. I know this is strange, but the kindness he showed toward his mother practically moved me to tears. My brothers would NEVER show any kindness or respect or love to my mom, that is to say, if they ever even called each other in the first place. My brothers are assholes who set up a false impression of men for me. Greg proved me wrong, and I am so thankful.
Not only that, Greg told me about how he was protecting his sister from getting hit on at a bar. My brothers would never stick up for me in that type of situation. I have finally met someone that helped me change my opinion on the generalizations I make toward men.
Sunday, March 1, 2009
I hate being moody, stressed out to the max, and sleepless.
Not to mention I feel like the worst friend in the world at the moment. For that, I am sorry. *sigh*
I am writing a very important paper at the moment that's due tomorrow, but I am this close to saying "fuck it" and going to bed and just waking up tomorrow morning to do it, GAH!
I feel horrible. Here is your unpleasant post for the day...
Not to mention I feel like the worst friend in the world at the moment. For that, I am sorry. *sigh*
I am writing a very important paper at the moment that's due tomorrow, but I am this close to saying "fuck it" and going to bed and just waking up tomorrow morning to do it, GAH!
I feel horrible. Here is your unpleasant post for the day...
Monday, February 23, 2009
I'm aliiiiiiiiiiive!
And putting off my linguistics homewooooork (how do you do it everyday, Dee??!?!?!!).
Just thought I'd write a quick blurb about life at the moment. Here you go:
Life is GOOD! Life is almost borderline great.....except the constant hum of stress in the background. But other than that, I have been very very very happy. Weekdays consist of work. Weekends consist of spending time with Greg. There is no time for rest! I think I have been losing weight as well due to my exercise class! I'm gonna guess and say that I have lost upwards of 10 pounds (maybe that's stretching it?) and have even firmed up a bit. This weekend was bad-for-me food weekend, though. It consisted of pizza, TONS of chinese food, cake, alcohol, and Japanese sweets. I will now attempt to re-enter health land (even though I *may* have just eaten ice cream).
In other news, I have turned in my Nanzan Application. This means I am one step closer to achieving my goal (yay!)!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now we play the waiting game. I just have to get through this semester and a shitty summer job and then it's off to NIHON! That's the update on Japan.
Now I sit here staring at my computer, wondering if I can actually get my linguistics homework done within a reasonable amount of time.
PS - The Columbus Asian Market is FANTASTIC!!! I wish I had been there before this year! I totally missed out on something amazing. I bought lotsa candy and drinks that are especially bad for me (surprise surprise). I even bought my boss some engrish-inspired tea drink called "Hello, Boss!" as a joke. Alright then, I am off to the land of morphemes and inherant variability and blah blah blah.
ONLY 11 MORE DAYS TIL I AM DONE WITH MY AWKWARD TEEN YEARS! WOO!
And putting off my linguistics homewooooork (how do you do it everyday, Dee??!?!?!!).
Just thought I'd write a quick blurb about life at the moment. Here you go:
Life is GOOD! Life is almost borderline great.....except the constant hum of stress in the background. But other than that, I have been very very very happy. Weekdays consist of work. Weekends consist of spending time with Greg. There is no time for rest! I think I have been losing weight as well due to my exercise class! I'm gonna guess and say that I have lost upwards of 10 pounds (maybe that's stretching it?) and have even firmed up a bit. This weekend was bad-for-me food weekend, though. It consisted of pizza, TONS of chinese food, cake, alcohol, and Japanese sweets. I will now attempt to re-enter health land (even though I *may* have just eaten ice cream).
In other news, I have turned in my Nanzan Application. This means I am one step closer to achieving my goal (yay!)!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now we play the waiting game. I just have to get through this semester and a shitty summer job and then it's off to NIHON! That's the update on Japan.
Now I sit here staring at my computer, wondering if I can actually get my linguistics homework done within a reasonable amount of time.
PS - The Columbus Asian Market is FANTASTIC!!! I wish I had been there before this year! I totally missed out on something amazing. I bought lotsa candy and drinks that are especially bad for me (surprise surprise). I even bought my boss some engrish-inspired tea drink called "Hello, Boss!" as a joke. Alright then, I am off to the land of morphemes and inherant variability and blah blah blah.
ONLY 11 MORE DAYS TIL I AM DONE WITH MY AWKWARD TEEN YEARS! WOO!
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Awkward
There is nothing more embarassing than when you are walking arm-in-arm with your boyfriend because he wants to protect you from the ice but you slip and fall on your ass anyway.
That's all I'm saying.
That's all I'm saying.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
SNOWWWWWWWW DAAAYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!
Here is a list of things I did today:
1) Slept
2) Slept
3) Ate
4) Drank Coffee
5) Random HW
6) ZELDA
Now it's almost time for dinner. How time flies....! Today has been beyond relaxing, except for the fact that I am running very very low on food and should probably dig out my car and clean it off and buy stuff but I don't feel like it. I would rather just sit here and do nothing like I have been all day.
Joani and Taka are coming home with me for Spring Break. Now I have to make a list of creative things to do and places to see. GAH! Since I have friends that aren't from Chicago now I hafta be creative in thinking of things to do that won't be repetitive...jeez. Polish food anyone?
Here is a list of things I did today:
1) Slept
2) Slept
3) Ate
4) Drank Coffee
5) Random HW
6) ZELDA
Now it's almost time for dinner. How time flies....! Today has been beyond relaxing, except for the fact that I am running very very low on food and should probably dig out my car and clean it off and buy stuff but I don't feel like it. I would rather just sit here and do nothing like I have been all day.
Joani and Taka are coming home with me for Spring Break. Now I have to make a list of creative things to do and places to see. GAH! Since I have friends that aren't from Chicago now I hafta be creative in thinking of things to do that won't be repetitive...jeez. Polish food anyone?
Monday, January 19, 2009
Week 1 is Over!
*Phew* I thought the first week of second semester would NEVER end. But it did! Wahoo!!!!
Life at this point in time is very calm. I am happy to report that I have started working out again, and even though it has only been a week so far, I am pretty optimistic. I just have to stay on this track and keep going with this mindset. I don't like to think of it as a "diet" per se, but rather as a way of changing my life for the better (oooh sounds epic!!). I have learned the ultimate secret to losing weight -- PATIENCE. That always seems to be the number one HARDEST thing to achieve or understand while on a diet, but right now I am confident that I can lose some amount of weight this semester. My goal is to lose a lot of weight before I go to Japan. This leaves me almost an 8-month window. Nice.
So, here I sit, analyzing poetry for class and counting down the minutes until I can go to bed. I had just one of the most amazing sugar-free puddings in the world. I hope things can remain this calm at LEAST until the end of the semester. I am doing my best until the very end! Then I can finally take a vacation from this place and go to where my heart is calling me - Japan.
Life at this point in time is very calm. I am happy to report that I have started working out again, and even though it has only been a week so far, I am pretty optimistic. I just have to stay on this track and keep going with this mindset. I don't like to think of it as a "diet" per se, but rather as a way of changing my life for the better (oooh sounds epic!!). I have learned the ultimate secret to losing weight -- PATIENCE. That always seems to be the number one HARDEST thing to achieve or understand while on a diet, but right now I am confident that I can lose some amount of weight this semester. My goal is to lose a lot of weight before I go to Japan. This leaves me almost an 8-month window. Nice.
So, here I sit, analyzing poetry for class and counting down the minutes until I can go to bed. I had just one of the most amazing sugar-free puddings in the world. I hope things can remain this calm at LEAST until the end of the semester. I am doing my best until the very end! Then I can finally take a vacation from this place and go to where my heart is calling me - Japan.
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Today has been an interesting day. Let me tell you about one instance in particular that sticks out in my mind. I was in my room when my mom called up to me saying that my dad wanted me to shovel the snow out from under my car and clean it off. I shrugged -- I did it yesterday. Why did I have to do it today, too? So I reluctantly grabbed my keys and the small shovel my dad bought for me and headed out into the cold to get to work. My dad followed me. "You're not going to use THAT, are you??" he asked, pointing to the shovel. I looked at him "No....DAD," I replied, irritated. "Of course, not. I'm just putting it in the trunk of my car like you ASKED me to." He did the goofy dad grin and said "You should get a bigger shovel....like the one THAT guy has." He gestured to the guy across the street shoveling the snowy mess off of his own car. The guy looked up and smiled at me........my God........who was his GUY?? Why have I never seen this cute man before?? "I like this shovel," he said. "Comes in handy!" And that was it. My dad laughed and walked away. I ran to the garage and grabbed a bigger shovel, my heart racing.
When I ran back to my car the first thing I noticed was that the guy kept looking over at me. I started shoveling the mess that had piled up around my car. "Do you need help? I could offer you a hand in getting the snow off of the roof of your car if you like" He asked, looking at me. I smiled. This guy was really cute and I was flattered. "No. I think I'll be ok! Thanks, though!" Dumbass! Why didn't you accept?? I though as I turned away. Stupid stupid stupid stupid! I realized as my hands were getting numb that I definately needed better gloves. I leaned the shovel against a pile of snow and ran into the house to get my dad's.
When I ran back outside and picked up the shovel again, he walked over to me. "You know," he said as he got closer, "I think it's taking you a little too long." He laughed. "Let me help you!!" I graciously accepted and he got to work. I thousand thoughts raced through my head. Who was this guy?? Is he my neighbor? Is he flirting with me? What is this? Is he just being nice?? Ahh! My brain broke into a million confused pieces. Not only did he get the snow off of the top of my car, he also cleaned the snow from my tires and doors and cleaned my windshield wipers. We proceeded to make small talk. He is my new neighbor. He moved in across the street. Though he didn't say his age, I am guessing he is about 25. He asked if I went to Northwestern. That was only time in my life that I wish I went there so I could say "yes." I wanted to tell him I was coming back in the summer, but that would be too strange, I think. We continued chatting. Then he turned to me, smiled a HUGE smile, and said "Have a safe drive back to Ohio." Then he walked away. Time seemed to slow down. No man has ever helped me with this before. I turned to thank him yet again but it was too late. He had disappeared.
I walked back to the garage, a HUGE grin plastered on my face. My dad walked up to me, pinched me on the cheek and said "You are so cute when you're happy. So.........when's the wedding?" He had been watching the whole time.
Had they planned this?? Hahahahaha! ;-)
When I ran back to my car the first thing I noticed was that the guy kept looking over at me. I started shoveling the mess that had piled up around my car. "Do you need help? I could offer you a hand in getting the snow off of the roof of your car if you like" He asked, looking at me. I smiled. This guy was really cute and I was flattered. "No. I think I'll be ok! Thanks, though!" Dumbass! Why didn't you accept?? I though as I turned away. Stupid stupid stupid stupid! I realized as my hands were getting numb that I definately needed better gloves. I leaned the shovel against a pile of snow and ran into the house to get my dad's.
When I ran back outside and picked up the shovel again, he walked over to me. "You know," he said as he got closer, "I think it's taking you a little too long." He laughed. "Let me help you!!" I graciously accepted and he got to work. I thousand thoughts raced through my head. Who was this guy?? Is he my neighbor? Is he flirting with me? What is this? Is he just being nice?? Ahh! My brain broke into a million confused pieces. Not only did he get the snow off of the top of my car, he also cleaned the snow from my tires and doors and cleaned my windshield wipers. We proceeded to make small talk. He is my new neighbor. He moved in across the street. Though he didn't say his age, I am guessing he is about 25. He asked if I went to Northwestern. That was only time in my life that I wish I went there so I could say "yes." I wanted to tell him I was coming back in the summer, but that would be too strange, I think. We continued chatting. Then he turned to me, smiled a HUGE smile, and said "Have a safe drive back to Ohio." Then he walked away. Time seemed to slow down. No man has ever helped me with this before. I turned to thank him yet again but it was too late. He had disappeared.
I walked back to the garage, a HUGE grin plastered on my face. My dad walked up to me, pinched me on the cheek and said "You are so cute when you're happy. So.........when's the wedding?" He had been watching the whole time.
Had they planned this?? Hahahahaha! ;-)
Friday, January 2, 2009
My internet works again! Wooo! Now I can have a life! -- Or not a life, depending on which way you look at it.
Happy New Year, everyone!! :-) I really really hope that 2009 turns out being a hell of a lot better than 2008. I don't think 2008 was a very good year, really. I kinda wish it was 2010 so I could turn 21, heeheehee. But I'll settle with turning 20. At least I won't be a teenager anymore (THANK GOD!!!).
Back to reading! I'll think of something interesting to put here later.
Happy New Year, everyone!! :-) I really really hope that 2009 turns out being a hell of a lot better than 2008. I don't think 2008 was a very good year, really. I kinda wish it was 2010 so I could turn 21, heeheehee. But I'll settle with turning 20. At least I won't be a teenager anymore (THANK GOD!!!).
Back to reading! I'll think of something interesting to put here later.
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