Blech. I feel like poop. And I'm very angry.

Although the week that Greg visited was amazing, I feel kind of......sad. He told me while he was here that basically JET has placed him on a fucking island off the coast of Tokyo. With a population of like...10 people. Which means it won't be easy to go see him and for him to come see me. In my mind this equates to RELATIONSHIP FAIL. Communication shall become almost nonexistent because I'll be doing Nanzan stuff all day and he'll be teaching. On a fucking island. A million miles away from me. The only sensible way to get to this island (which is volcanically active, by the way...) is by boat or plane but 1) Both are expensive and I'm anticipating not having much money in Japan due to not having much money now and 2) It takes 6 hours for the boat to get there not to mention it ONLY departs from Tokyo and it takes a while to get from Nagoya to Tokyo (travel time: 8 hours? 10 hours?). Our relationship? Fucked. At least in my mind. Greg is optimistic (which is a surprise) but I'm only thinking about losing the one thing I care about most. Thanks Japan and JET. You've been a wonderful help.

Gripe number two. My fucking face looks like a battlefield. I've been breaking out uncontrollably since March so my dermatologist prescribed an antibiotic for my face. With piles and piles of other acne creams and medicines on top of that. I hate my face. It was perfectly clear for almost 2 years then it explodes on me. Which means *drum roll* I have a HELL of a lot of medication to take with me to Japan. Which will inevitably become a problem due to the fact that carrying a year's worth of medicine (which I will NEED because Japan will probably not have the medicine for me) is illegal. So my mom and I have to write an appeal to her insurance company basically begging them to let me take a year's worth of my acne medication over to Japan because I wasn't blessed with a fucking perfect complexion like everybody else I know. I'm not going through puberty anymore!! Wtf, face???

Good news: I have continued to lose weight. I am not sure how much (because like most women I am terrified to weigh myself) but I can feel my jeans feeling even looser than before. At least while my face is exploding my body's behaving.

I am also going to visit Greg in Pennsylvania from July 21 - 27! Which means I can see Reen and Joani! I am very very excited (just wish Megan was there, too). Greg and I have been talking about going to Philadelphia and maybe even DC for a day.

I am a emotional riddle at the moment. I can't be solved.