Sophmore Year: Day 1

*Sigh* I'm feeling a little homesick.

I know I said how excited I was to get back to Witt (which was completely true), but I miss home. I miss sammy. I miss my parents. I miss my hermano. I miss a lot of stuff. But at the same time I am truy truly glad to be back at school.

Moving in took a while, though. Seriously. It took me 2 full days to set up shop and get completely organized. When I got here I went to wal-mart and practically bought the entire store. And there's still more I need to buy! ahhhh!

So here I am in the hollenbeck computer lab after my first day of work anticipating both japanese class and chinese film class. I'm excited for both but I am soooooo nervous. I've been having a lot of concerns regarding how well I will do this year and if I'll actually make it to Japan and blah blah blah. Why am I being such a worrier? I know it'll be ok! Jeez.

Anyway, I've got 40 minutes to kill and HOLY CRAP THIS RANDOM BUG JUST FELL IN FRONT OF ME FROM OUT OF NOWHERE!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hope I got my packages today!

The Last Days are Upon Me

The title of this post says it all. I have only 2 more days left of summer! What should I do? I am already planning on doing some major shopping tomorrow for school. I am so incredibly worried about fitting everything into my tiny tiny car. My mom was like "Don't worry; whatever doesn't fit we'll just ship to you," but I feel like I need EVERYTHING with me at once. So it'll be interesting packing my car.

I bought a TV today!!!!! It's a pretty nice flat panel hi-def 19" TV, which is awesome. I'm thinking that eventually I'll buy hi-def cables for my wii to hook into it. Oh my god, playing zelda on hi-def would be an epically life changing event. Maybe I can talk my boss into giving me a raise so I can fund this project, lol.

So, to give you an update of all the stuff I have been throwing my hard-earned petsmart money at lately, I bought Wii fit! I'm super super super super excited. If you don't see me for a couple days when I'm on campus, you'll know why. I also bought fabric paint and Me and Dee got together to make the most amazing shirts in HISTORY. Yayayay! I'm so pumped to wear mine!! And, finally, I bought Unlacing Lilly. You have no idea how excited I am to read this book. I may pee myself with anticipation. The time between Gail Ranstrom's book releases are pure torture.

Tomorrow will be spent getting last minute things and Friday will be spent packing and cleaning and getting my car washed (ohhhh man. It needs it). Holy crap I'm returning to Witt Saturday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Expect to see me on campus around 12 or 1 (I hope!)

I'm Back!

So I'm back!.........from a rather boring Wisconsin trip. I thought more was going to happen, but I spent all of my time there tanning and eating. And drinking coke, of course.

I am soooooooooooo unbelievably tired. I haven't really "slept" since Tuesday night. My body feels really strange right now - sometimes really good and other times really nauseated. I think my brain is just confused. I need to sleep. The end.

I also started packing for Wittenberg. Aside from tomorrow (which will be spent with Dee -- who I haven't seen in about 3 months), I will be buying supplies and getting stuff together for my SOPHMORE YEAR! I'm excited!! I need to sleep.

And one final tidbit of information - my dad has told me to buy wii fit. I think I will. There's no way around it.

It's almost time!

10 more days til Witt!!!!! YAY!!!!!!

Last night I dreamed that I had to be on campus this week for some meeting so I drove all the way to Wittenberg and hung out there for a while. I realized, as my dream went on, that I drove all the way there for NOTHING, because the "meeting" was actually about moving in and I had forgotten ALL of my stuff at home. But I didn't drive back. Instead, I just walked around campus and avoided calling my parents to tell them they could either 1) send me all of my stuff or 2) pack my stuff for me and drive to ohio. The end.

In other words, my brain is telling me I'm ready to go back.

As a J, I have already made lists!

You know, it's so unbelievably different this time around. Last year, as the weekend of moving to campus came closer, I really started freaking out. I felt like I was dying -- I felt like I would never see my friends or family ever again. But this time around I am really really really looking forward to being back in my "zone" and being with the peeps I love whom I have missed dearly this entire summer. I guess it's cuz I'm past the awkward "making friends" part of freshman year, haha. I'm gonna be a SOPHMORE, dammit.

In other news, yesterday I bought Brawl. AMAZING. GAME. Need I say more? My dad was watching me play adventure mode in brawl yesterday, and when Fox's ship came on screen my dad was like "IT'S FOX!!!!" And he started reciting lines from starfox 64. I nearly fell outta my chair. "DAD!!! HOW DO YOU REMEMBER THAT????" I kept asking him. He just looked at me like "what?" I forget sometimes that he pays attention to the games I play. We still have lots of inside jokes about Zelda that we bring up sometimes. I love those. I'll miss my dad when I go to school. There's my sentimental thought for the day.

Alright, I should wrap this up. It is 1:30 PM and I'm still in my PJ's after all. I'll be in Wisconsin from tomorrow to Monday. Please text me!!!

Moody

You know, I haven't really been in a good mood these past 2 days. So I apologize to anyone that's talked to me and received a bad or off-putting impression (sorry!). Today I'm still kinda in a bad mood. So you may want to avoid me for the next day or so.

Here's the "haps" in my life at the moment. I went shopping yesterday, but I still have yet to buy Brawl (sorry Reen and Joani, haha). I have been focusing on buying more clothes for school now that my huge boobs have felt the need to become more huge (should I put that on a public blog, I wonder?). I also bought this amazing crystal light powder packet thing that is SO GOOD! It tastes like liquid popsicle! Yum yum!! And it's sugar free! Yay! My tattoo is healing pretty well, I think, but since I've never had one before I'm not sure...it's really itchy!! >_<

Only another week and a half til I move back to Witt! I'm both super excited and not-so excited. I don't want to type paper after paper again. Second semester of last year was so good because I was taking 2 classes that didn't require you to write papers (JAP and math). I'm so burned out from writing papers my whole life. Can't teachers/professors realize that once they assign the grade the paper becomes virtually useless? All that hard work for nothing. This is my rant on paper writing. But because I'm me I'll still work my ass off no matter what.

This is one pointless post. Maybe I'll go play some mario kart...

A Kate Holt-esque post (RELIGION!!!)

Question: How many times is it ok to "start over"?

Answer: An unlimited amount.

With God, anything is possible. What I need to do now is remember that and start following His advice. I need to keep my goals in mind! I give up on myself too easily. That's the problem. But I've proven myself wrong (in a good way) so many times. I believed that no guy would ever be interested in me, but I proved myself wrong when the guy from work asked me on a date. I believed that I wouldn't be able to feel comfortable in my house again after returning from college. Again, proven wrong. I made myself believe that after the whole Alanna ordeal I had no friends and that no one gave two shits about me. Wrong. Wronger than I've ever been in my entire life. God has blessed me in countless ways. I love my friends to the point that it hurts. And they feel the same about me! It's honestly one of the best feelings in the world knowing that people out there actually love me!!! I'm selfish and want to hang onto this feeling forever.

I made myself believe that I wouldn't be able to lose weight and be happy. Well....that one I'm still working on. But I've been praying a lot and asking God for help because this is a big deal for me. So, again, I'm starting over. I've been thinking a LOT about my faith recently. To be honest, it needs work. Tons and tons and tons of work. I had been slipping during my first year of college, but God is back in full force! He's like Ganondorf! --in a good way. Ah I'm a geek but hopefully you see where I'm going with this, haha! Anyway, God is back in my life telling me it's ok to start over and be happy and forget about bad shit that has happened and move on. I need to start a new chapter in my life and finally let go of all the stuff that's been clinging to me for years and years.

Well, this was my caffeine-induced philosophical thought for the day. Maybe it's inspired you to think about your faith and let you know that God is always right there, saying "once more, for good luck!" Starting over is ok. In fact, I'm going to do that right now.

A Long Day + Tattoo

As the title may suggest, today was a long day.

I washed about 7 or 8 dogs in a row today and couldn't take a break because there was no time. But I'm totally cool with that because I know other people in the salon (except my lazy boss *sigh*) work 8 times harder than me on a daily basis. Also, I only have two more days of work left! Then I can sort of have a life for about 2 weeks. Then go to school. Fun fun fun.

I await another phone call from the doctor. I wonder when she'll get back to me? Stay tuned!

And now, for the awesomest news of the day................

I GOT MY TATTOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's amazing. No, really. It is. I have waited about an entire year for this tattoo (or my life, depending on how philosophical you want to get). I ended up getting a tat of the triforce. It's on my right ankle. I can't wait til it heals completely!! It'll look so badass (or geeky, haha!) Until then I have to clean it 2-3 times a day and put ointment stuff on it for about 2 weeks. I'll take a pic of it eventually (you know me and my laziness). :-)

Nervousness

Arg ga blaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

If there's any noise I would be making to express to you how nervous I am about tonight, THAT would be it.

Tonight I am getting an MRI done on my brain. I'm not going to tell you why because this is a public blog and you don't want to know the details, believe me. But if you're that curious, ask me in person. I'll gladly tell you.

Apparantly some guy wrote a book called "Zelda: A Philosophy" or something like that. It's about how the legend of zelda incorporates all this deep philosophical meaning in its games. I may buy it, hahahaha. Well ok, maybe I won't spend money on it (or would I?), but I'm sure I can be geeky as usual and just look at what people on various zelda forums have to say about it.

I get my tattoo in 2 days!!!! Weeeeee!!! Ryo was going to get one with me, too, but she has to save up money to buy stuff for groom school. Oh well. I'm still dragging her with me. I'M EXCITED!!!!!! :-D

Only 3 more weeks til Witt!! Who wants to help me move in???? ;)