Question: How many times is it ok to "start over"?
Answer: An unlimited amount.
With God, anything is possible. What I need to do now is remember that and start following His advice. I need to keep my goals in mind! I give up on myself too easily. That's the problem. But I've proven myself wrong (in a good way) so many times. I believed that no guy would ever be interested in me, but I proved myself wrong when the guy from work asked me on a date. I believed that I wouldn't be able to feel comfortable in my house again after returning from college. Again, proven wrong. I made myself believe that after the whole Alanna ordeal I had no friends and that no one gave two shits about me. Wrong. Wronger than I've ever been in my entire life. God has blessed me in countless ways. I love my friends to the point that it hurts. And they feel the same about me! It's honestly one of the best feelings in the world knowing that people out there actually love me!!! I'm selfish and want to hang onto this feeling forever.
I made myself believe that I wouldn't be able to lose weight and be happy. Well....that one I'm still working on. But I've been praying a lot and asking God for help because this is a big deal for me. So, again, I'm starting over. I've been thinking a LOT about my faith recently. To be honest, it needs work. Tons and tons and tons of work. I had been slipping during my first year of college, but God is back in full force! He's like Ganondorf! --in a good way. Ah I'm a geek but hopefully you see where I'm going with this, haha! Anyway, God is back in my life telling me it's ok to start over and be happy and forget about bad shit that has happened and move on. I need to start a new chapter in my life and finally let go of all the stuff that's been clinging to me for years and years.
Well, this was my caffeine-induced philosophical thought for the day. Maybe it's inspired you to think about your faith and let you know that God is always right there, saying "once more, for good luck!" Starting over is ok. In fact, I'm going to do that right now.
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Oh man, Cece. That was powerful. I read it and began tearing up, not gonna lie. It's so cool to see how God is working on you. Can't wait to talk to you and hear about what brought this post on. love ya. <><
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