DEE DEE DEE DEE!!! I'M SORRY!!! I KNOW YOU TEXTED ME YESTERDAY!!!! I'M SORRY I DIDN'T REPLY!!!!! I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I'M SORRY!!! I am glad you wore our necklace!!! I think we should get one more pair before I fly off to Japan! I LOVE YOU SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO MUCH!!!! If you're not busy tomorrow (Monday, 04/28) I will call you. I want to hear about your weekend please!!!!!!!

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Today Greg and I took a walk trough the Ferncliff graveyard. I got a weird sunburn because I was wearing my sundress and forgot to put sunblock on my shoulders (I'm innocent! I swear! I didn't know the sun in flippin APRIL would burn me). Today was an absolutely gorgeous day and I took advantage of it!!

A weird thing that happened earlier today was I was overcome with an overwhelming sense of nostalgia. I felt a deep longing for my parents and my best friend, for back in the day when I still lived at home and I could see them every day. But when I looked in Greg's eyes I realized that everything I really ever longed for was right in front of me. I still feel nostalgic, but I feel more optimistic about the future for some reason. Nostalgia keeps catching up to me at random times these days. I think I have finally hit the point in life in which I realize I am truly independant. Every adult hits it I hear. I think now is the time. But I feel confident about the future.

One last note: Greg bought me a bear!!!! I named it Algodon Pittsbeargh Lisinski-Walter.

END BOYFRIEND RANT!

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Yesterday we rented a hotel room for Joani for her 21st birthday. We had a BLAST!!!! There was vodka. Mike's hard lemonade. Diet Coke. Kingdom Hearts. Peter Pan. Best damn hotel party ever.

I have a weird fear of airplanes so I dreamt (as I dream almost every night) about a really horrible plane crash. Apparantly in the middle of the night I let out a weird moan or something. I woke up crying. Kit Kat was like "OMG CECE ARE YOU OK?!" God. I hate airplanes. I hate these stupid dreams. YOU ARE NOT AFRAID OF AIRPLANES, CECELIA. STOP THINKING YOU ARE! (Ahh!!!)

I have only a week and half left of classes. I don't really know how to feel about this. This year went by SO FAST! Where did my sophmore year go??

Alright, it's time for this lazy gal to go to bed finally. Since I am tired this post may have seemed very random. Hope you liked reading it!

Decisions Decisions Decisions.

I want to sleep forever! Actually, I noticed something a tad strange. There are weird lines that are starting to form under my eyes. Does this mean I am A) getting older B) not sleeping enough or C) both? Personally I think C.
College is just overall bad for the body!

Summer! I will be returning Sunday May 17th!! Then somehow I have to find a job in this dying economy. THEN AFTER THAT...JAPAN!!!!!!

Anyway, Easter break was very very very low-key and relaxing. Thursday evening was spent with Greg. Hot Fuzz = ONE OF MY NEW FAVORITE MOVIES!!! Friday me and the gals had a sleepover in kit kat's room which was FANTASTIC!!!!! Watched Battle Royale and played Zelda (score!!). Saturday was spent doing practically nothing. I bought a new book which I am excited about. Sunday I went over to Greg's house to dye eggs with him, his roomates, and my fellow naughty ninensee's. I made a pokeball egg! It was sweet!! And Greg's roomate Dave's parents bought the guys a SHIT ton of candy. I have a theory that they will all have diabetes very very soon. Except Greg. He will have bad cholesterol. I'm changing his eating habits slowly.

I feel bad about not going to church on Easter. :-( I am looking forward to going back to my church over summer break. I miss it a lot!!!!

That's it! I'm off to bed!!

Why do I get the feeling like my parents are disappointed in me?

I know that's something weird to ask and I know it's most definately not true, but that's how I've been feeling lately. For example, my mom called a couple days ago to work out some scholarship issues and whatnot, and she did NOT sound happy to talk to me. And then this morning I received a preachy e-mail from her about how she did not want me to stay with Greg and how she was sad I wasn't coming home for Easter and blah blah blah blah. *sigh*

Not to mention I've been feeling so guilty about EVERYTHING recently. I don't know what's going on. I feel like my friends are so disappointed in me. And I feel like I'm letting everyone down. And I feel like I'm being a clingy girlfiend. I feel like everyone is irritated with me, so I'm trying to just have Cece-time. So right now I sit here in my room and blog about my disgusted-with-myself-ness.

I need you to be here with me, best friend. I need someone to vent to and laugh with and celebrate life with. I don't seem to have anyone like that here.