Confessions and some Freaking Out

I have something terrible to admit........

I went to Catholic church the other night and.....................I liked it *cringe*. Basically, even though I have changed denominations completely and go to my own AMAZING church on Sundays, I still go to Catholic mass twice a year with my family (christmas and easter......except not really easter anymore since I go to school miles and miles away from home). Even though I've spent my years running from everything Catholic, my roots lie with Catholicism. I'm sorry. I hate it as much as you do. I hate Catholicism. But sometimes I can't forget that it played such a strong part in my life for 16 years. Believe it or not, I was actually moved at the mass. The horrible horrible horrible decision I made some weeks ago still haunts me and makes me feel really sad almost every day. I have been having THE WORST time getting over it. But a couple nights ago at mass, I felt reconnected with myself and asked God for forgiveness. And I believe he forgave me. Now I just have to forgive myself.

Anyway, all seriousness aside. I have been having a pretty relaxing break. I found out that my Majora's Mask cartridge doesn't work anymore *sad face*. It keeps freezing. But my Ocarina of Time cartridge still works amazingly, so I have been playing Zelda almost every day to keep myself occupied. I've also been reading a lot. I've actually rediscovered my love of reading! Oh, I've also been spending time with my family which, originally, I was really dreading, but it's getting better. In fact, these past couple days have been nice. There have even been a few instances recently where my Dad has said something to me and I've laughed so hard that I started crying.

So what's next on my list? I was freaking out last night because apparantly my passport expires while I will be in Japan and the application requires a passport valid at LEAST up to 6 months after the program ENDS. Soooooooo after a lot of confusion and freaking out, I managed to find a way to get my passport renewed. Yeah! Megan, if you are reading this, since we both got our passports at the same time-ish, you should check and see when yours expires ASAP.

Anyway, I'm off to go entertain myself somehow. I hope everyone had a good Christmas!!! :) I wish my dad would fix the damn internet already. I feel so disconnected. I'll be making a reappearance in your lives soon! Mwahahaha!

Home!

I'm HOOOOOOOMMEEEEEE!!!! Which can only mean one thing.......

The internet on my laptop doesn't work!! Noooooooooooo!!! That means that I can't download as much music/stuff as I had originally planned because people keep turning my family's computer OFF. Grrr.

Today has been really slow. I woke up @ 3:45 to drive Takako to the airport. We both cried when I dropped her off. It was so sad! But anyway, after the movie-esque airport scene, I drove home -- which, when you are alone in the car for 5-6 hours straight, you start having strange epiphanies. So I blasted some music to keep that from happening. I got home around 9:45 AM (central time), unpacked, then NAPPED LIKE I'VE NEVER NAPPED BEFORE IN MY LIFE!!!! Tonight is also going to be slow. I just finished walking Sammy but now I've got nothing to do.....damn internet for not working on my laptop! Only 3-ish more weeks until I can go back to Witt! Ahhh it's so far away. :-(

Other than that I have no news to report! Exams went OK for the most part. Somehow I got an A- in Smith's class. Honestly I don't think he gave me the grade because I did well (which I didn't because I wrote some of the shittiest papers I have ever written in my entire LIFE in that class). I think he gave me the grade because he is just plain creepy. But I'm grateful that he was so enthusiastic to write my professor recommendation for Nanzan. I still anxiously await my grades for Japanese and Bin Yu *gag*. Hope everyone is enjoying their freedom so far!

One more week!

I get to go home this week!! Yayayayayay! Then I can concentrate on my Nanzan application and do my favorite thing ever: SLEEEEEEEEEEP!!!! The only bad thing is that I have 2 exams and paper. Boo. But really I don't care. I just wanna not be stressed anymore.

Yeah, I'm in a pretty good mood today. Since I am at Dakao right now, I should be studying but I am just to giddy. :-) Maybe this time around it can happen.

Now Entering Hell Week

I am going to die. Seriously. I have to read 2 books and write an 8 page paper on them before next Tuesday, I have to film a movie and write a 2 page paper about it by Friday, I have to finish my powerpoint, go out to dinner with my Japanese class on Friday, go out to lunch with my Chinese class on Saturday, memorize my Japanese dialogue, do the FLLC work, memorize my skit, buy groceries with money I don't have, and somehow fit sleeping, breathing, and eating into all of this. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Side note: it's amazing how much more mature I feel after getting my haircut. I didn't think I'd be able to pull off short hair, but somehow I'm managing. It makes me happy. I feel so grown up. :-)

Anyway, I have to endure all this shit until next Wednesday. Then I am freeeeee!!!! And then.....I have to study for exams. Can't I just sleep? That word will soon become foreign to me.