Life Update

Every day is becoming easier. Since I have the most amazing friends in the world, I am truly gonna get over this one quickly I think. Let's hope so. Things are working out. Yet to be honest I still wake up with that "lost" feeling, but it's not as bad as before. The epic movie/j-drama that my life has become is nearing the end. Only one more thing to do. But it's back to the good old boring life....*sigh*

I just pulled my first college all nighter. I don't know what happened. Last year I was so flippin organized for everything and for life in general. But I find that this year I have become more and more disorganized. That paper I wrote last night should be 500 times better, but my procrastination skills seem to be improving (which is not a good thing). Let's see how miserably I failed on this one *sigh*. Damn Smith and his damn creepiness. Ask me about the "hair" story if you haven't heard it.

I think I just need 2 things right now: 1) My best friend 2) A nice bottle of vodka, lol. Sorry to copy you Dee but it's so true. I just need you, vodka, and some DCC. And chocolate. And Mario Party. And Zelda. Both of us are/were going through the EXACT same thing at the EXACT same time which is so creepy. Maybe Jesus (the real one) has something else in store for us? Lol.

FUNNY STORY!!! No really. It's a good one. So last night I got only 2 hours of sleep, right? right. So as a result, I am so loopy today. This morning in class, Bin Yu directed a question to the class. Without realizing it I raised my hand and started talking. I didn't realize I was answering his question until mid-paragaph. I also didn't realize that BY was giving me this weird look because what I was saying WASN'T EVEN MAKING SENSE. I was just stringing random words together. I mentally woke up and was like "WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING??" Slowly (and I do mean slowly) I began making sense. The end.

I woke up this morning feeling lost.

Reality has never hurt so much. I want to go home.

Life is Better!

Life = way better than last week!

...It took me way too long to remember how to spell the proper "week" that applied to that last sentence. Where has my english gone?

SO!!!! What's been going on in la vida de Cece you may be wondering? Well this Friday I am going to the AIA formal which means I get to look SEXY and wear a DRESS!! yayayay! I haven't worn a dress in a while so I'm very happy! :D Saturday will be very very very busy with the EAS festival (I get to wear a yukata! yay!) and various other things. Sunday will probably spent catching up on much-needed sleep. I enjoy me some sleep.

I have come to the realization that Chinese literature consists of nothing but tragedy/sex/rape/death (in the form of brutal murder). Please read the novels Red Sorghum, Rice, and Green River Daydreams if you don't believe me. I love every word. Chinese literature = my kind of literature.

It's getting to that time of the year where everything is starting to become hectic. But I am going home in a couple weeks so it's ok! I am taking creative writing next semester!!! I am so excited. I can't wait til this semester is over (except that I hear that japanese 212 is next to impossible......). Oh well. So much to do so little time!!!!

Anger

Oh life, why art thou sucking so?

*throws hair in front of eyes a la Sano style* Yes, I am being emo.

A QUICK VENT!!! I cannot publicly list the main reason why I am being emo. But right now I am very confused and just......waiting. For something, anything to happen. Anything at all. Send me a sign. Something. Stop being an asshole, dammit!! Stop ignoring me! Make up your mind!! Grrrrr!!!!! [End vent]

Vague part of this post over. IN OTHER NEWS, it's almost the weekend! Yay! I plan on sleeping. Mmmmmm sleep. Here we go again, another post about sleep, hehe.

I am really angry at my parents right now. It seems like everyone else talks to their parents like 8 times a week. I talk to my mom (not my dad because he has NEVER called me ever) like once every 2 weeks. I wish they cared more. The last time my mom called we ended up fighting about money and classes. And every time I try and call my mom's like "Oh we're busy. Ooops. I'll call you next week." And then when she calls a WEEK AND A HALF LATER we only talk for 5 minutes about how sorry she is about "interrupting my busy schedule and just quickly needs to tell me something and then OK BYEEEEE." Grrrrrr. More anger.

I really need a haircut. The last time I got one? May. 6 months ago. Holy crap! At least I get to go home in a couple weeks. Then I can get one. I am looking for a sexy new style. If you have any suggestions I would love to hear them!

I register for classes on Monday. At least I'm a sophmore so I have a bit of an edge over the Freshman but still I'm a little nervous about getting the classes I want. I also need to start working on my Nanzan application too. Apparantly they are super-nazi about filling out the application correctly and if I mess up in ANY way I have to get ANOTHER application and blah blah blah.

I want to go somewhere and get off campus. Especially since gas was $1.97 at the Valero *shockshockshock*. Someone come with me. Anywhere. I don't want to be angry anymore.