Confessions and some Freaking Out

I have something terrible to admit........

I went to Catholic church the other night and.....................I liked it *cringe*. Basically, even though I have changed denominations completely and go to my own AMAZING church on Sundays, I still go to Catholic mass twice a year with my family (christmas and easter......except not really easter anymore since I go to school miles and miles away from home). Even though I've spent my years running from everything Catholic, my roots lie with Catholicism. I'm sorry. I hate it as much as you do. I hate Catholicism. But sometimes I can't forget that it played such a strong part in my life for 16 years. Believe it or not, I was actually moved at the mass. The horrible horrible horrible decision I made some weeks ago still haunts me and makes me feel really sad almost every day. I have been having THE WORST time getting over it. But a couple nights ago at mass, I felt reconnected with myself and asked God for forgiveness. And I believe he forgave me. Now I just have to forgive myself.

Anyway, all seriousness aside. I have been having a pretty relaxing break. I found out that my Majora's Mask cartridge doesn't work anymore *sad face*. It keeps freezing. But my Ocarina of Time cartridge still works amazingly, so I have been playing Zelda almost every day to keep myself occupied. I've also been reading a lot. I've actually rediscovered my love of reading! Oh, I've also been spending time with my family which, originally, I was really dreading, but it's getting better. In fact, these past couple days have been nice. There have even been a few instances recently where my Dad has said something to me and I've laughed so hard that I started crying.

So what's next on my list? I was freaking out last night because apparantly my passport expires while I will be in Japan and the application requires a passport valid at LEAST up to 6 months after the program ENDS. Soooooooo after a lot of confusion and freaking out, I managed to find a way to get my passport renewed. Yeah! Megan, if you are reading this, since we both got our passports at the same time-ish, you should check and see when yours expires ASAP.

Anyway, I'm off to go entertain myself somehow. I hope everyone had a good Christmas!!! :) I wish my dad would fix the damn internet already. I feel so disconnected. I'll be making a reappearance in your lives soon! Mwahahaha!

Home!

I'm HOOOOOOOMMEEEEEE!!!! Which can only mean one thing.......

The internet on my laptop doesn't work!! Noooooooooooo!!! That means that I can't download as much music/stuff as I had originally planned because people keep turning my family's computer OFF. Grrr.

Today has been really slow. I woke up @ 3:45 to drive Takako to the airport. We both cried when I dropped her off. It was so sad! But anyway, after the movie-esque airport scene, I drove home -- which, when you are alone in the car for 5-6 hours straight, you start having strange epiphanies. So I blasted some music to keep that from happening. I got home around 9:45 AM (central time), unpacked, then NAPPED LIKE I'VE NEVER NAPPED BEFORE IN MY LIFE!!!! Tonight is also going to be slow. I just finished walking Sammy but now I've got nothing to do.....damn internet for not working on my laptop! Only 3-ish more weeks until I can go back to Witt! Ahhh it's so far away. :-(

Other than that I have no news to report! Exams went OK for the most part. Somehow I got an A- in Smith's class. Honestly I don't think he gave me the grade because I did well (which I didn't because I wrote some of the shittiest papers I have ever written in my entire LIFE in that class). I think he gave me the grade because he is just plain creepy. But I'm grateful that he was so enthusiastic to write my professor recommendation for Nanzan. I still anxiously await my grades for Japanese and Bin Yu *gag*. Hope everyone is enjoying their freedom so far!

One more week!

I get to go home this week!! Yayayayayay! Then I can concentrate on my Nanzan application and do my favorite thing ever: SLEEEEEEEEEEP!!!! The only bad thing is that I have 2 exams and paper. Boo. But really I don't care. I just wanna not be stressed anymore.

Yeah, I'm in a pretty good mood today. Since I am at Dakao right now, I should be studying but I am just to giddy. :-) Maybe this time around it can happen.

Now Entering Hell Week

I am going to die. Seriously. I have to read 2 books and write an 8 page paper on them before next Tuesday, I have to film a movie and write a 2 page paper about it by Friday, I have to finish my powerpoint, go out to dinner with my Japanese class on Friday, go out to lunch with my Chinese class on Saturday, memorize my Japanese dialogue, do the FLLC work, memorize my skit, buy groceries with money I don't have, and somehow fit sleeping, breathing, and eating into all of this. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Side note: it's amazing how much more mature I feel after getting my haircut. I didn't think I'd be able to pull off short hair, but somehow I'm managing. It makes me happy. I feel so grown up. :-)

Anyway, I have to endure all this shit until next Wednesday. Then I am freeeeee!!!! And then.....I have to study for exams. Can't I just sleep? That word will soon become foreign to me.

Life Update

Every day is becoming easier. Since I have the most amazing friends in the world, I am truly gonna get over this one quickly I think. Let's hope so. Things are working out. Yet to be honest I still wake up with that "lost" feeling, but it's not as bad as before. The epic movie/j-drama that my life has become is nearing the end. Only one more thing to do. But it's back to the good old boring life....*sigh*

I just pulled my first college all nighter. I don't know what happened. Last year I was so flippin organized for everything and for life in general. But I find that this year I have become more and more disorganized. That paper I wrote last night should be 500 times better, but my procrastination skills seem to be improving (which is not a good thing). Let's see how miserably I failed on this one *sigh*. Damn Smith and his damn creepiness. Ask me about the "hair" story if you haven't heard it.

I think I just need 2 things right now: 1) My best friend 2) A nice bottle of vodka, lol. Sorry to copy you Dee but it's so true. I just need you, vodka, and some DCC. And chocolate. And Mario Party. And Zelda. Both of us are/were going through the EXACT same thing at the EXACT same time which is so creepy. Maybe Jesus (the real one) has something else in store for us? Lol.

FUNNY STORY!!! No really. It's a good one. So last night I got only 2 hours of sleep, right? right. So as a result, I am so loopy today. This morning in class, Bin Yu directed a question to the class. Without realizing it I raised my hand and started talking. I didn't realize I was answering his question until mid-paragaph. I also didn't realize that BY was giving me this weird look because what I was saying WASN'T EVEN MAKING SENSE. I was just stringing random words together. I mentally woke up and was like "WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING??" Slowly (and I do mean slowly) I began making sense. The end.

I woke up this morning feeling lost.

Reality has never hurt so much. I want to go home.

Life is Better!

Life = way better than last week!

...It took me way too long to remember how to spell the proper "week" that applied to that last sentence. Where has my english gone?

SO!!!! What's been going on in la vida de Cece you may be wondering? Well this Friday I am going to the AIA formal which means I get to look SEXY and wear a DRESS!! yayayay! I haven't worn a dress in a while so I'm very happy! :D Saturday will be very very very busy with the EAS festival (I get to wear a yukata! yay!) and various other things. Sunday will probably spent catching up on much-needed sleep. I enjoy me some sleep.

I have come to the realization that Chinese literature consists of nothing but tragedy/sex/rape/death (in the form of brutal murder). Please read the novels Red Sorghum, Rice, and Green River Daydreams if you don't believe me. I love every word. Chinese literature = my kind of literature.

It's getting to that time of the year where everything is starting to become hectic. But I am going home in a couple weeks so it's ok! I am taking creative writing next semester!!! I am so excited. I can't wait til this semester is over (except that I hear that japanese 212 is next to impossible......). Oh well. So much to do so little time!!!!

Anger

Oh life, why art thou sucking so?

*throws hair in front of eyes a la Sano style* Yes, I am being emo.

A QUICK VENT!!! I cannot publicly list the main reason why I am being emo. But right now I am very confused and just......waiting. For something, anything to happen. Anything at all. Send me a sign. Something. Stop being an asshole, dammit!! Stop ignoring me! Make up your mind!! Grrrrr!!!!! [End vent]

Vague part of this post over. IN OTHER NEWS, it's almost the weekend! Yay! I plan on sleeping. Mmmmmm sleep. Here we go again, another post about sleep, hehe.

I am really angry at my parents right now. It seems like everyone else talks to their parents like 8 times a week. I talk to my mom (not my dad because he has NEVER called me ever) like once every 2 weeks. I wish they cared more. The last time my mom called we ended up fighting about money and classes. And every time I try and call my mom's like "Oh we're busy. Ooops. I'll call you next week." And then when she calls a WEEK AND A HALF LATER we only talk for 5 minutes about how sorry she is about "interrupting my busy schedule and just quickly needs to tell me something and then OK BYEEEEE." Grrrrrr. More anger.

I really need a haircut. The last time I got one? May. 6 months ago. Holy crap! At least I get to go home in a couple weeks. Then I can get one. I am looking for a sexy new style. If you have any suggestions I would love to hear them!

I register for classes on Monday. At least I'm a sophmore so I have a bit of an edge over the Freshman but still I'm a little nervous about getting the classes I want. I also need to start working on my Nanzan application too. Apparantly they are super-nazi about filling out the application correctly and if I mess up in ANY way I have to get ANOTHER application and blah blah blah.

I want to go somewhere and get off campus. Especially since gas was $1.97 at the Valero *shockshockshock*. Someone come with me. Anywhere. I don't want to be angry anymore.

Sleep sounds good right now

I got 3 hours of sleep 2 nights ago and 4 hours last night. I slept between 5 and 6 hours for the nights before that. *sigh* I need sleep. The end.

I can't tell if I am getting sick or not. I feel physically and mentally like shit (my english today has been sooooo terrible. Life = suck today). I don't think it's a cold, but I definately need to sleep. Wow, all I can talk about is sleep, lol. All I seem to do in this blog is complain! But not really.

Today is October 28th. I will be home for a couple days in 4 weeks. Now that I completed the paper for Smith (which was shit-tastic by the way), I can FINALLY relax. Well, sort of. I do have a Japanese oral exam on Monday. I want to sleep.

Apparantly my analysis on the digestive apparatus of Five Dragons in comparison to Roland Barthes' views on food semiology were correct!!! ("What??" MY POINT EXACTLY!!!)

This miso soup I am drinking is soothing my throat!!! :-) Ok, thats it from me. I gotta get back to staring at the various messes (dishes, laundry, crap) in my room hoping they learn how clean themselves...

Acupuncture!!! And other news as well!

I just got back from my EAMC class field trip to the Harmony Center in downtown Springfield. And guess what.....? I got needled! It was really fascinating. Well.....it was both fascinating and embarrasing. Embarrasing because I totally have not shaved my legs in a couple weeks and my hairs are long. When he asked me to roll up my pant legs, I was thinking "Ohhhh shit. All the peeps are gonna see my hairy legs." And they did. Oh well. I moved on, lol. I got needled! He stuck the needles in my hands, my knees, and my feet. And he was like "I'm gonna put one in your head too. It'll relax you." And the funny part was that yes, it actually DID relax me. It relaxed me so much that I kind of went into la la land and felt all my worries and anxieties slipping away. I felt physically at ease, too. It was nice. I think I will need a nap as a result. But anywho, it was an incerdibly interesting experience and will hopefully "correct my spleen Qi" or whatever he was talking about.

And now for the second most epic news of the day: I GOT AN "A" ON MY BIN YU EXAM!!!!!! HELL YEAAAAHHH!!!!! He even wrote "Nice essay!" at the end. :-) Woooo!!!! I was so happy that I called my mom and I started crying a little. You have honestly NO idea how much this exam was freaking me out. The funny part is that he actually forgot to put all of the grades on our (the people in the class) tests, so when he handed them out we all RIPPED through our exams because we weren't sure where our grade was. Then some girl was like "Um, prof. Yu, you forgot to put the grade on mine." He gave her this look like "YOU LIE!!!!" but then realized his mistake and literally RAN to his office to write down our grades on our tests. At this point I ws so anxious I was practically peeing myself. When he handed me my test, I stared in disbelief. I practically fainted I was so happy. I scared my boss a little though because I ran all the way into the office where I work and screamed "I GOT AN AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!" And Laura was like "I TOLD YOU, YOU DUMB BITCH!!!!!!!!!" Well....ok.....she didn't say that. But she said something to the effect of that. ;-)

Anyway, I'm gonna go be lazy and play Zelda or something. Speaking of, next month is the 10th year anniversary of Ocarina of Time's release. Has it really been that long? Hope you all enjoyed reading my post. I am incredibly exstatic right now.

I'm happy. :-)

Procrastination

Only one more exam. Then I am DOOOONNNEEEE!!!! WOOOOOOOOO!!!
As of right now I still have yet to study. Maybe I should get on that? Nah, I'll just continue procrastinating and sqee-ing because I get to SEE MY HERMANO TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I get to visit MEGAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOWOOWOO!!!!!!! I am so so so so excited for this weekend!!!

In other news, my Bin Yu exam went all right I think. Maybe? I dunno. Because of what happened the other day (hehehe, Dee) I have been completely out of it and in la la land. So I don't really care. Man, this is one boring post. I guess I'm just super-putting off packing. Maybe I should go do that. And study. Naaaaah.

I hope all my Wittenberg friends have an absolutely AMAZING break! :-)

Freaking out, as usual

I have my first Bin Yu exam next week. Words cannot even describe how nervous I am! I called my dad the other day to bitch and complain about it and he, being my dad of course, was just like "Shut up. You'll be fine." Ohhhh my dad.

In other news, I wish next weekend would come faster. Next weekend = Dee. And not being on campus. I actually like driving long distances now. It's kinda peaceful. So I'm looking forward to driving around Indiana, lol. ESPECIALLY if gas stays 2.87 at the Valero round the corner from school (yes - the gas actually was THAT cheap!).

I can't wait to sleep this weekend!

Alright, time to go to my last class of the day! Then perhaps I may nap? Who knows?

Happy Times

I have been in a really really good mood recently. I don't know what's going on! Hahaha! :-)

The scoop on my life! I had my study abroad appointment with Joanne Bennett! I am going to Nanzan no matter WHAT! Even if it KILLS ME!!!!!!!!! Apparantly the application deadline is in February, but I don't actually find out if I'm "in" in until May. So, for about 3-ish months second semester I will be going crazy. Just letting you all know! I will be in super anxiety mode!!

Dee! I LOVE YOU! Had to put that out there. :-D I'LL SEE YOU IN 16 DAYS!!!

I got prof. smith to change my c+ to a b-. I'm happy about that but at the same time his class scares the shit outta me. I still don't know what exactly smith is looking for in his papers. Or, if I THINK I know, I am actually so far from the truth it hurts. Wah! But oh well. Maybe if I fit his life story in one of my papers, he'll be thrilled and go "well now I HAFTA give you an A!"

Kate! Don't die!!!!!!!!

That's it from this boring life of mine. Days go by. Nights come. Mornings go by quickly. Etc. Etc. Rinse and repeat. Apparantly wittenberg is scamming me and making me pay them for receiving an actually paper paycheck and not using the damn witt accounts they give us. For the record, I really enjoy phone calls. You should call me sometime.

:-(

Fuck me. I'm having the worst day of my life. Not only did I have the worst dream ever last night, but I got a C+ on my paper. GAAAH. Just kill me please.

My parents are coming to visit me this weekend.

I should be really happy, right? I should be like how I was last year: practically bursting with excitement. This year is different, though. I don't feel the same. In fact, I kind of don't want them to come visit. It's kind of selfish to say all this considering that none of my friends parents are coming, but honestly I don't want to see my parents this weekend. I'd rather just relax. They even want to go to the football game. Me + sporting events = not a good match.

My dad's even trying to get me to come home for fall break now that I'm not going to Columbus. I honestly don't want to go. I'm at such an awkward point in my life. Oh well, I still have time to decide. I'd rather just stay on campus. What's with my sudden lethargy?

September 7th Thoughts

Wah! I haven't written in a while! I'm sorry!

To be honest, I've tried writing new posts, but they all came out sounding bitchy and whiney and pointless. So I didn't post them.

Let's see......what's going on in my life? Yesterday I ate Japanese food at I-zu (Aizu). I LOVE THAT RESTAURANT!! Somehow every time I go in there, I feel at home. And it's run by real Japanese people so I got to try out random Japanese phrases and feel cool, haha.

Today I slept until noon. It was amazing. I haven't actually slept that well in soooooo long, so it was nice. But, alas, the work I have been putting off all weekend came back to bite me in the ass, so I couldn't have much of a social life today.

On a more personal note, I've been feeling really disconnected lately. Disconnected with myself. I think I am in deinal about a lot of things that I really don't want to admit. Plus, I've been very angry recently. INCREDIBLY angry. But, at risk of sounding emo or bitchy, I'll stop there.

I should take a shower. Good night!

Sophmore Year: Day 1

*Sigh* I'm feeling a little homesick.

I know I said how excited I was to get back to Witt (which was completely true), but I miss home. I miss sammy. I miss my parents. I miss my hermano. I miss a lot of stuff. But at the same time I am truy truly glad to be back at school.

Moving in took a while, though. Seriously. It took me 2 full days to set up shop and get completely organized. When I got here I went to wal-mart and practically bought the entire store. And there's still more I need to buy! ahhhh!

So here I am in the hollenbeck computer lab after my first day of work anticipating both japanese class and chinese film class. I'm excited for both but I am soooooo nervous. I've been having a lot of concerns regarding how well I will do this year and if I'll actually make it to Japan and blah blah blah. Why am I being such a worrier? I know it'll be ok! Jeez.

Anyway, I've got 40 minutes to kill and HOLY CRAP THIS RANDOM BUG JUST FELL IN FRONT OF ME FROM OUT OF NOWHERE!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hope I got my packages today!

The Last Days are Upon Me

The title of this post says it all. I have only 2 more days left of summer! What should I do? I am already planning on doing some major shopping tomorrow for school. I am so incredibly worried about fitting everything into my tiny tiny car. My mom was like "Don't worry; whatever doesn't fit we'll just ship to you," but I feel like I need EVERYTHING with me at once. So it'll be interesting packing my car.

I bought a TV today!!!!! It's a pretty nice flat panel hi-def 19" TV, which is awesome. I'm thinking that eventually I'll buy hi-def cables for my wii to hook into it. Oh my god, playing zelda on hi-def would be an epically life changing event. Maybe I can talk my boss into giving me a raise so I can fund this project, lol.

So, to give you an update of all the stuff I have been throwing my hard-earned petsmart money at lately, I bought Wii fit! I'm super super super super excited. If you don't see me for a couple days when I'm on campus, you'll know why. I also bought fabric paint and Me and Dee got together to make the most amazing shirts in HISTORY. Yayayay! I'm so pumped to wear mine!! And, finally, I bought Unlacing Lilly. You have no idea how excited I am to read this book. I may pee myself with anticipation. The time between Gail Ranstrom's book releases are pure torture.

Tomorrow will be spent getting last minute things and Friday will be spent packing and cleaning and getting my car washed (ohhhh man. It needs it). Holy crap I'm returning to Witt Saturday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Expect to see me on campus around 12 or 1 (I hope!)

I'm Back!

So I'm back!.........from a rather boring Wisconsin trip. I thought more was going to happen, but I spent all of my time there tanning and eating. And drinking coke, of course.

I am soooooooooooo unbelievably tired. I haven't really "slept" since Tuesday night. My body feels really strange right now - sometimes really good and other times really nauseated. I think my brain is just confused. I need to sleep. The end.

I also started packing for Wittenberg. Aside from tomorrow (which will be spent with Dee -- who I haven't seen in about 3 months), I will be buying supplies and getting stuff together for my SOPHMORE YEAR! I'm excited!! I need to sleep.

And one final tidbit of information - my dad has told me to buy wii fit. I think I will. There's no way around it.

It's almost time!

10 more days til Witt!!!!! YAY!!!!!!

Last night I dreamed that I had to be on campus this week for some meeting so I drove all the way to Wittenberg and hung out there for a while. I realized, as my dream went on, that I drove all the way there for NOTHING, because the "meeting" was actually about moving in and I had forgotten ALL of my stuff at home. But I didn't drive back. Instead, I just walked around campus and avoided calling my parents to tell them they could either 1) send me all of my stuff or 2) pack my stuff for me and drive to ohio. The end.

In other words, my brain is telling me I'm ready to go back.

As a J, I have already made lists!

You know, it's so unbelievably different this time around. Last year, as the weekend of moving to campus came closer, I really started freaking out. I felt like I was dying -- I felt like I would never see my friends or family ever again. But this time around I am really really really looking forward to being back in my "zone" and being with the peeps I love whom I have missed dearly this entire summer. I guess it's cuz I'm past the awkward "making friends" part of freshman year, haha. I'm gonna be a SOPHMORE, dammit.

In other news, yesterday I bought Brawl. AMAZING. GAME. Need I say more? My dad was watching me play adventure mode in brawl yesterday, and when Fox's ship came on screen my dad was like "IT'S FOX!!!!" And he started reciting lines from starfox 64. I nearly fell outta my chair. "DAD!!! HOW DO YOU REMEMBER THAT????" I kept asking him. He just looked at me like "what?" I forget sometimes that he pays attention to the games I play. We still have lots of inside jokes about Zelda that we bring up sometimes. I love those. I'll miss my dad when I go to school. There's my sentimental thought for the day.

Alright, I should wrap this up. It is 1:30 PM and I'm still in my PJ's after all. I'll be in Wisconsin from tomorrow to Monday. Please text me!!!

Moody

You know, I haven't really been in a good mood these past 2 days. So I apologize to anyone that's talked to me and received a bad or off-putting impression (sorry!). Today I'm still kinda in a bad mood. So you may want to avoid me for the next day or so.

Here's the "haps" in my life at the moment. I went shopping yesterday, but I still have yet to buy Brawl (sorry Reen and Joani, haha). I have been focusing on buying more clothes for school now that my huge boobs have felt the need to become more huge (should I put that on a public blog, I wonder?). I also bought this amazing crystal light powder packet thing that is SO GOOD! It tastes like liquid popsicle! Yum yum!! And it's sugar free! Yay! My tattoo is healing pretty well, I think, but since I've never had one before I'm not sure...it's really itchy!! >_<

Only another week and a half til I move back to Witt! I'm both super excited and not-so excited. I don't want to type paper after paper again. Second semester of last year was so good because I was taking 2 classes that didn't require you to write papers (JAP and math). I'm so burned out from writing papers my whole life. Can't teachers/professors realize that once they assign the grade the paper becomes virtually useless? All that hard work for nothing. This is my rant on paper writing. But because I'm me I'll still work my ass off no matter what.

This is one pointless post. Maybe I'll go play some mario kart...

A Kate Holt-esque post (RELIGION!!!)

Question: How many times is it ok to "start over"?

Answer: An unlimited amount.

With God, anything is possible. What I need to do now is remember that and start following His advice. I need to keep my goals in mind! I give up on myself too easily. That's the problem. But I've proven myself wrong (in a good way) so many times. I believed that no guy would ever be interested in me, but I proved myself wrong when the guy from work asked me on a date. I believed that I wouldn't be able to feel comfortable in my house again after returning from college. Again, proven wrong. I made myself believe that after the whole Alanna ordeal I had no friends and that no one gave two shits about me. Wrong. Wronger than I've ever been in my entire life. God has blessed me in countless ways. I love my friends to the point that it hurts. And they feel the same about me! It's honestly one of the best feelings in the world knowing that people out there actually love me!!! I'm selfish and want to hang onto this feeling forever.

I made myself believe that I wouldn't be able to lose weight and be happy. Well....that one I'm still working on. But I've been praying a lot and asking God for help because this is a big deal for me. So, again, I'm starting over. I've been thinking a LOT about my faith recently. To be honest, it needs work. Tons and tons and tons of work. I had been slipping during my first year of college, but God is back in full force! He's like Ganondorf! --in a good way. Ah I'm a geek but hopefully you see where I'm going with this, haha! Anyway, God is back in my life telling me it's ok to start over and be happy and forget about bad shit that has happened and move on. I need to start a new chapter in my life and finally let go of all the stuff that's been clinging to me for years and years.

Well, this was my caffeine-induced philosophical thought for the day. Maybe it's inspired you to think about your faith and let you know that God is always right there, saying "once more, for good luck!" Starting over is ok. In fact, I'm going to do that right now.

A Long Day + Tattoo

As the title may suggest, today was a long day.

I washed about 7 or 8 dogs in a row today and couldn't take a break because there was no time. But I'm totally cool with that because I know other people in the salon (except my lazy boss *sigh*) work 8 times harder than me on a daily basis. Also, I only have two more days of work left! Then I can sort of have a life for about 2 weeks. Then go to school. Fun fun fun.

I await another phone call from the doctor. I wonder when she'll get back to me? Stay tuned!

And now, for the awesomest news of the day................

I GOT MY TATTOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's amazing. No, really. It is. I have waited about an entire year for this tattoo (or my life, depending on how philosophical you want to get). I ended up getting a tat of the triforce. It's on my right ankle. I can't wait til it heals completely!! It'll look so badass (or geeky, haha!) Until then I have to clean it 2-3 times a day and put ointment stuff on it for about 2 weeks. I'll take a pic of it eventually (you know me and my laziness). :-)

Nervousness

Arg ga blaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

If there's any noise I would be making to express to you how nervous I am about tonight, THAT would be it.

Tonight I am getting an MRI done on my brain. I'm not going to tell you why because this is a public blog and you don't want to know the details, believe me. But if you're that curious, ask me in person. I'll gladly tell you.

Apparantly some guy wrote a book called "Zelda: A Philosophy" or something like that. It's about how the legend of zelda incorporates all this deep philosophical meaning in its games. I may buy it, hahahaha. Well ok, maybe I won't spend money on it (or would I?), but I'm sure I can be geeky as usual and just look at what people on various zelda forums have to say about it.

I get my tattoo in 2 days!!!! Weeeeee!!! Ryo was going to get one with me, too, but she has to save up money to buy stuff for groom school. Oh well. I'm still dragging her with me. I'M EXCITED!!!!!! :-D

Only 3 more weeks til Witt!! Who wants to help me move in???? ;)

Confusion

Ahhhh I don't know what to doooooooo. :-/

But I have until I go to Wisconsin to decide. About 3 weeks. I'll probably end up taking Kate and Dee's advice and going for it, but do I really want to? Help!

Ok, change of subject time. Next Monday, I AM GETTING MY TATTOOOOOO!!! YAAAAAY! Ryo and I are gonna go to this place called "Insight Studios" on Milwaukee ave. She told me it's clean and they do a good job and charge much less than jade dragon. Now comes the next question: Do I want just the triforce? Or the whole triforce-with-wings thing? I need opinions! Let me know yours!

And finally, a diet update. My mom and I both came to the conclusion that I should do phase one of the SBD again. Then, next summer, I am going to do weight watchers if I am still unhappy about my weight. The first time I did the SBD I lost a couple pounds, but I didn't stick with it or exercise as much as I should have. I guess you could call it my "trial run." So, this time, I'm gonna give it my all!

I'm so pumped to go back to Witt! Only 4 more weeks! :-D

Random Random Randumb?

Dear self,

Here is a list of stuff you have to do before you go back to Wittenberg:

1) Buy your books
2) Pay dad back for stuff
3) Pay mom back for stuff
4) Buy tv stand from ikea
5) Register vehicle on campus (when the hell can I do that?)
6) Spend more money on pointless crap you know you don't need

Thanks,
Yourself

Yeah. That was random.

The good news: Kate and I discovered ZG and his girlfriend broke up.
BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA!
The zelda/mario references will be FLYING next year!! *evil grin*
It's been an amazing past couple of days.
Now for sleepy-time.

おわり

Sometimes, life is strange

Man, I had it all planned today. I was going to go to the gym and have a killer workout (I love going to the gym, if you didn't know that about me). I got everything together and ready to go last night so I could just wake up, throw clothes on, and get there relatively early.

But then my mom had another horrible horrible insulin reaction again. She had it at 6:00 this morning. When they happen it always scares me because it reminds me of when she had to go to the hospital those couple of days and almost died when I was a junior in high school. So I heard her shouting and running around and couldn't go back to sleep. The adrenaline kept me awake for a loooong time. I didn't feel like going to the gym after that. I felt like curling up into a ball and sleeping for the rest of the day. Sometimes I'm glad I went to school far away so I wouldn't have to deal with these things all the time.

Holy moly thats depressing. I'm done with my adventures in emo-land!

The amazing news is that I bought FF7: Advent Children for 9 bucks at wal-mart today. I plan on watching it eventually. This has been such a FF7 summer. I still have to beat Sephiroth.

A new blog???

Hi anyone who reads this! :)

I started a blog! Wooooot!

Wow. I haven't had a blog in god knows how long.....ever since the xanga days! *gasp!*

Ok maybe I stole Dee's idea and started one. Maybe I'll update it every once in a while if you're lucky (I am soooo lazy). Sometimes I have deep thoughts I like to share. Or a Cece story.

Enjoy the ride!